if you want me, then fight for me, because i'm fighting like hell for you.

HELLO! XD

N-LEVEL is coming this Mon.
AARGH! i'm just not mentally prepared.

today, got my EOA paper.
and guess what?
hahas. i got A1. LOL.
i was so happy.
my studying till late morning was paid off.
woohoo.

yea, this whole week is the Mock Exams.
duh.
everyday, come to school and do exam.
haa. while we were doing exam still can chit-chat.
ended school at 2pm.
went home with Ismail.

and now, i got nothing to do.
he didn't msged me yesterday.
but i slept early yesterday because of the parents bickering as usual.
sick and tired of it.

i'm missing my FANDI today.
miss him damn loads.
i'm going to call tonight.
hahas. (:

have you ever been jealous about your guy?
indeed, YES i have.
i'm pretty jealous about him.

yesterday, there was an event Ronald Macdonald party hold at BPP.
haa. help out and have some funs. but when it came to the worst part, when the store needed help, i have to go back there.
walau. and as i go off from there to store, Ronald came.
hurhur. and i didn't get to see. hmph!

ended work at 6pm. hahas.
RM wanted to extend me and she didn't even tell me in the place.
how can she decide for me when i didn't make the decision.
what the hell, but i managed to escaped.

changed into our outside clothes cause we are going out to see movie.
hehe. meet up with Razzaaq and Bashir but Bashir didn't followed us due to he need to go to the hospital because of someone who is sick lor.
haish. but its okay, we can go again with Bashir next time.
asked my BF along but he said he's not following.
okay fine then.

watched movie at Cineleisure.
we watched the 'Frostbite'.
haa. at the first starting of the show was quite boring and then when it moved on.
OMG! i was like scared to death. its a damn horror story and there was some part that made us laughed.
i covered myself with my jacket when watching the movie.
haha. Aini and Razzaaq thought what had happened and Aini fool around to make me scared.
haish. i really wish that my BF can go yesterday to accompany me.
thought that he was beside me watching the movie together.
as Aini with Razzaaq together but me, alone? =?

thinking and thinking. but he weren't there.
that was the sad part. ):

went home and catch the last train and reached home at 1am.
today, it's the fasting day.
have to wake up at 4.30am to eat.
i can hardly open my eyes.
too sleepy.
after that went to sleep again and wake up at 8am to go for work.
duh! ended at 2.30pm and took taxi home cause i was really really exhausted.

and yea, today is supposingly to be my anniversary with my BF.
but i didn't get to see him. both of us were working.
thought he would msged me after i had punched out from work, but he didn't msged me. so headed home.
haish. ):

i'm really really very confused.
i don't know.
somehow there's things in my mind is disturbing me.
aargh!

OMG! i'm so about to lose my mind.
haa.

went to Lot1 with Aini, Aisha & Reno and ate at Food Culture.
the food was awesome but i didn't finish up my food because i was too full.
khakha.
the four of us seems to have lot of topics to talk about.
haha. and yea, we did some gossips.
AHACKS! you know girls. (:

oh ya, i hope that nothing will happen to my good friend.
someone is thinking otherwise whereas she/he still have yet to know the truth.
so people, whenever you want to pick a problem or making any movement towards the person, please get the right facts first.
don't misjudge the person wrongly.

school ended at 2pm.
pretty boring.
go through papers and i'm so so not satisfied with my results.
i did so badly.
aargh! ):

i didn't go for remedials.
haa. in fact, i'm so lazy to go for any remedials.

and yea, BTW..

I MISS MY DARLING; FANDI! (:
love him loads. <3

hoping to go out with him this Sunday cause it's our,
11th Months Anniversary being together.
and it's the first day of starting month.
i don't know if i can go out on that day itself.
hurhur.

i have been wondering to this question as it had happened to someone.
i wouldn't tell you who it is. but it will get me agitated to know if this thing happened to me.

it hurts to see if someone actually tried to steal your boyfriend or trying to ruin your relationship with your boyfriend, isn't it?

if i'm the one, i wouldn't want that to happen and i will get hold of this person who is actually trying to ruin my relationship with my boyfriend.

i just got this comment,
think before you do and not to hurt another people feeling.
DUH!

school ends at 1pm today.
and headed to Lot1.
while walking towards there, saw Sufian from Anugerah Skrin.
haa. Reena was so enthu and joyful and keep saying its SUFIAN.
he was with his girlfrind from CCK Polyclinic and he smiled.
he has a RED VESPA. *WOOT*
saw Niza at Lot1 when i'm going towards the Lrt to get home and here i am to write this blog.
LOL. (:

i don't feel like going to school tomorrow.
i'm so tired.
haish.

today's paper was hard.
especially Science paper 2.
haa.

but i tried hard in doing well in my Science paper 1 & 3.
LOL.

and yea, today's my best friend sister birthday, EKIN.
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY; EKIN! (:
hope your relationship with Arie last long aight.

yesterday, went to Admiralty first to meet Carol to take back my hp back.
hee(: happily waiting.
asked Amri to go with me.

after i had taken back my hp, went to BP to meet the Aini, R.Z, Bashir, Yazid, Saufie and Farouk.
it was raining heavily.
all was soaked by the rain.
haa.

then took 700 to Far East Plaza.
went to eat.
then meet Ab, Aliff, Wan and i forget 1 of these guy name and Amri gang there.

and proceed to Cineleisure to eat again.
saw my beloved cousins who is already married.
hahas. Kak Rina and Abg Amie.
but Amri, Yazid and the gang did not joined us cause something happened.
haa.
after eating, walked to Esplanade.
met some familiar people as usual.
saw Ismail and the gang, 2 of my EX- boyfriends, Kino and the gang and lots more.
talked to them and then we went to search for sit.
not many people were there but there were some cultured people.
hee(:
later, saw Atikah, my good friend.
hahas. she joined us and played 'CHOP CHILLI CHOP'.
and then, Adam joined us afterwards.
khekhe. some people wanted to joined us and had laughters and crapped around.
at about 10pm plus headed to Raffles City Mrt.
i walked alone cause something bothering me.
hmm. but talked to Bashir and yea he helped me lots.
really appreciated his help.
thanks Bashir.

today, went to kenduri at my aunty house.
yea, meet my cousins and lots more.
my grandma missed me cause i haven't been going if there's any functions.
haa.
okayla, was glad that Yayan came. talked to him.
hee(:
that happened for today.
i'm so tired.

AARGH!
hurhur.
i left behind my HANDPHONE at the van.
when going home from work.
and hell, i was kind of stunned and i was in shocked.
asshole.

i was looking high and low in my bag.
i thought i had put it back inside right after Farouk msged me.
haa. i'm going to put the blame on him uh.
hmph! if is not because he didn't msged me, i think i wouldn't take out my hp from my bag till i got home and that was the safety way.
hah. and for goodness sake that Carol one of my manager heard a sound when i was actually calling my hp from my home.
haa. she picked it up and tell me hah your hp is with me.
hee(: i was kind of relieved when i got to know taht my hp was in her hand.
and thank god i called immediately when i founf out it was not with me.
she was already on her way back when the driver sent her home too in van.
if i called it late, i think i don't get my hp back bah.
if got the driver no, i could just called him straight to ask him check thoroughly in the van for my hp and if it was found, i'm going to tell him to keep it first.
haa.

hurhur. i missed my hp.
haa. wonders if someone msged me?
aargh!

and tmr before i'm going out, i'm meeting Carol to take my sweetheart hp back at Admiralty.
haha.
i just couldn't wait for it bebeh.
it depends if i can wake up early lor.
haiya! so ma fan.

ish ish. okay for now, i'm going to sleep.
now, it's already what time and i haven't been sleeping from yesterday morning uh.
goodnight! (:

went back from school early.
i was having my gastric pain.
it was unbearable.

took taxi home, alone.
mum waited for me downstairs and then i rushed home.
it was so pain.
old sickness that i often gets when i'm unwell.
haish.

took my medicine already and mum keep nagging asking me to eat but i just don't have any appetite.
my friends told me that i looked pale.
hmm. hope to recover soon.

till here then. i want to get some rest.
TRALALA. ):

went home from school at 10.45am.
hee(: ouhlala.

CPA N-LEVEL PRACTICAL ended today.
but there's EOA N-LEVEL PRACTICAL this Thurs.
i just couldn't wait for these practical exam to end.

and then, i'll be bothered by all the prelims and N-LEVEL written papers coming up soon.
duh. will be very busy then. study study and study.
LOL.

am having my free time now, so just uploading pictures that i've not been uploading yet in my camera.
oh yes, i'll change my blogskins and update more and better views aight.
most probably it will be changed by October.
hopes so. hahas.

supposingly, wanting to meet darling but he said not today lei.
haish. he said probably next time. but its okay.
i'm looking forward to meet him. hee(:

went to school as usual.
yea, study study and study.
trying hard but i just can't focus on my Maths.
i'm just too weak in that subject.
haish.

english teacher, Mdm Chai didn't came to school.
till the class went wild cause of her absence.

i'm vomited in class.
yucks! i didn't know what came up.
i was just drinking water and out sudden i vomited out.
not that many but it taste disgusting.
gross. went to the toilet and washed out and just waited for school to end and went home straight.

ouh yes, i will update more soon after i've settled down things.
busy and sick to update it since my computer breakdown.
give me some time aight.

and to my beloved darling,
I LOVE YOU. =)

hmm. things had gotten out of hands.
i'm feeling low and my body are just weak.

i don't like this kind of feeling.
i have been vomiting.
my heart was in pain and feeling rather breathless.
and i also have body ache.
haish.

i hope i can be recovered as soon as possible.
i'm having my CPA N-LEVEL PRACTICAL this Tues.

and yea, hoping that things will turn out much more better.
thanks everyone who have been with me all these while and giving me advices and hopes.
i will not forget what you all have been doing for me.
many thanks. (:

i went home at about near to 10am.
was damn tired and now i'm feeling the pain.

went to East Coast for the night-cycling with my Thumbs Up group.
here are the names that in my group;
our group coach, Enthony.
our group members, me, Syasya, Dayah, Sharif, Dharma, Tommy, Khairil, Shahril and Shameer.

what did we do on the night-cycling.
we were supposed to cycle from East Coast to Changi Village then to Bedok Reservoir and then to East Coast back.
we started off at 11.30pm and ended at 6.30am.
cycled to each place and have our break.
ate at Changi Village the Nasi Lemak which was quite okay la uh.

it was a tortured day ever. seriously.
imagine that you have to cycle from this place to the another place.
and people complained that their butt and leg was in pain and can't cycled anymore but have to continued the journey.
i was frusted about it and just ignored and keep peddling.

on the way to Bedok Reservoir to East Coast, they lost their way.
there was a dead end at this place.
yea, have to go through the road, park, tunnels and many places.
there was uphill and downhill. lol.

i was shocked and be stern about and ignored the thing when i actually smelled something ''jasmine''.
damn. yea, some had foul mouth saying this and that.
everyone seemed to smelled that thing at this one place.
but i keep smelling it throughout when the first place i actually smelled it from Bedok Reservoir to East Coast back.
it seemed that i'm being followed.
indeed it is, it played pranks on me by falling some things out of sudden and the noise on my bicycle.
i was shocked and afraid that i asked Shahril to accompany me since the rest was in front and we kind of tired. duh.

all the painess in the butt makes me don't want to carry on.
haish.
and, i'm glad that we reached back at East Coast at 6.30am.
i was glad that it's over.
packed out things while waiting for the rest to finish eating their breakfast and took bus then mrt.
all they way, me, Syasya, Tommy and Shahril slept.
we were so tired and in pain and we couldn't wait to get home and get some sleep.
i haven't been sleeping since yesterday. the day before, i only slept for 2 hours.
likely, i'm beginning to feel tired as i've been feeling low.

the day end here. ):
goodnight.

Nistar Nisa(:

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