if you want me, then fight for me, because i'm fighting like hell for you.

here's an update!
Amie's birthday we went out for eat and then watched movie ''Night at the Museum''
hilarious show and you all should watch it.
26/12/06

i just checked it out that i passed my interview for the Beauty Therapy course.
AHACKS! (((:
and now, we have to go for the medical examination.
and already, i've a classmate that i knew whom is from my school.

right, Mandy?
you going to be my classmate soon.
AHACKS! (((:

many events are coming soon.
& i don't expect it to be early.
raaaahhhhh.

Hari Raya Haji.
New Year.
Schooling.
Birthdays.
& many more.

i've yet to enjoy my holidays.
it seemed fast sia.
aaarghh!

i want more holidays!
hurhur.

i'm so bored. stayed at home for the whole day.

aaarghh!
all i do was eat, sleep and watch tv.
boredom.

i don't know if i'm doing the right thing?
aaargh.

why am i always bothered with problems?
why why why?!

i told myself i don't believe in love,
BUT...
i love someone whom i love him very much.

yesyesyes.
i'm willing to wait for this beloved of mine to be with me back once again.

BUT...
right now someone started to develop feelings for me although i'm closed to him.
i know he understands me but i also know you are feeling hurt in the inside.
you yourself knows why am i doing all these.

although i had ride on your motorbike and had spent times together with you,
i wouldn't want you to think that i'm just playing with your heart.
I'M NOT okay?!
please don't think it that way that i'm bad.
i just want to be close just like a good friends.
even if i had met your parents and on the close terms,
i don't want you to think that you've got the chance.
i'm not being rough here but i just don't want you be hurt because of me cause i will feel guilty.
i'm totally sorry.
its not the right time for me to make the decision.
aarghh!

i miss my beloved crazy deeeeeee.
=))

life is to be fortified by many friendships.
to love and to be loved is the greatest happiness of existence.

i've been tagged do this survey by INA.
=))

01. Your name plus "poo"?
ANS : Hanisapoo
*extra* plus "ed"?
ANS : Hanisapooed

02. Two feelings at the moment?
ANS : Angry & Sad

03. What are you listening to right now?
ANS : Rascal Flatts - What hurts the most

04. A part of a song lyric that is in your mind?
ANS : Finch - Letters to you

05. The highlight of your week?
ANS : Out with the Dover's peeps.

06. What are you craving to have for right now?
ANS : Fried mars bars.

07. Any unforgettable childhood memories?
ANS : Those days when i fell in love with my neighbours. AHACKS!

08. A not-so-good childhood memories?
ANS : When i fall down.

09. What are your nicknames?
ANS : Nisa, NIStar & Honeystar

10. Your three plans for tomorrow?
ANS : Going out with Fad, Going riding & Watch movies '' Night at the Museum ''

11. Are you thinking of someone right now?
ANS : YES! I want him back.

12. Are you single?
ANS : Yes. I don't want to commit another relationship for now.

13. What do you want?
ANS : I want my deee back.

14. Say anything you like to whoever is reading your answers .
ANS : Fuck you. Ahahaha.

15. Are you feeling hungry?
ANS : Yes. Haven't eaten yet.

16. Who do you miss right now?
ANS : My deeeeeee.

17. Last friend you talked to online?
ANS : I think it's Ifaa darling.

18. What do you like about the night?
ANS : Dreaming about something.

19. If you visit a farm, what would you like to see?
ANS : I HATE animals.

20. When you were a kid, what would you want to be till now?
ANS : Model. Huahua.

21. Last gift?
ANS : A photo.

22. Do you like it?
ANS : Heh. Yes. Keeping it for memories.

23. Do you play an instrument?
ANS : I know some but rarely play.

24. What song did you last hear?
ANS : Ungu - Demi waktu

25. People you hate most?
ANS : The people who have been backstabbing me from behind.

26. Who makes you laugh the most?
ANS : Fad & his accompanies.

27. What makes you smile?
ANS : Whatever can make me happy.

28. Who do you have a crush on?
ANS : =X

29. Name 10 ppl to do this .
* IFAA.
* EDLIN.
* IRA.
* JASON.
* LYN.
* ZURAYN.
* LYSSA.
* YANI.
* RAIHANAH.
* ALYA.

wake up early in the morning today.
just to check on my bonus pay and finally my bonus has come in.
YEAH! i was so enthusiatic after getting my bonus pay.
WOOOHOOOO!

finally, i can go shopping!
yeah bebeh.
=))

meeting Aini at CCK to accompany her go polyclinic first before heading to Bugis. when we reached Bugis, we got many things on mind to buy. khekhe.

i bought, 1 pair of black shoes, 2 dress, 1 thights, 2 leather belts and 1 mini skirt. Aini bought, 2 shirts and a jeans. khekhe. many things to buy some more.

after shopping, met with Razzaaq and Farouk.
went to eat at a nearby coffee shop and after that i had to go off as i'm meeting the Dover peeps.

i took the Mrt alone and stop at Jurong East and then met with Fad first and go to Hadi's house and meet the rest.
after meeting the rest, procced to Serangoon for the karaoke session by 1 car and 2 motorbikes.
woohoo.

stayed at the karaoke session for 3 hours.
i cried when Amie sang this jiwang songs.
hurhur.
they didn't realised i was crying till Fad & Hadi was beside me seeing me covering myself with my blazer and they saw my tears when they pulled my blazer.
Amie & Roy both have a nice voice.

and then we go eat at Changi Village.
ahaha.
i saw many bapoks.
eat Nasi Ayam Peyek.
nice nice.

ouhokay, after that go Seletar for something on.
what the hell.
i'm not amused.
i hold on to the guys afraid something would happened.
sheesh.

and then went to sent Haikal at Woodlands and lepak there for a while.
me and Fad saw something.
sheesh.
don't talk about it.
sheesh. and everyone lepak while i go off first.

Yani on Fad's motorbike. Woohooo! Isn't she's cool?!

The four sisters on pelamin. AHACKS! =)

Abg Adie with naughty Aliff.

Danish. He's adorable.

The Bride whom is my cousin.

The ''Groom'' & ''Bride''.

When the groom comes.

Group of motorbikes from the guy side comes. Vroommm.

17/12/06
Kak Jumizah's Wedding

went to my cousin's wedding at Jurong West. from the guy's side came at about 11.30am with 2 design motorbikes came. some of the people seemed familiar. the ate, sang karaoke, took pictures and etc.

the guy's side came at about 11.30am. took pictures at the house and Kak Jumizah and his husband looks good together. Kak Jumizah looks preety. envies her. if my turn to married, i think i want to make it big and make it more specialities. huakz! wait long long, Nisa! =)) i also did invited Fad to came as his house is near and he knows where cause before the wedding he got come here. AHACKS! came with his chick, Zack. they ate and we talked together. ouhokay. i did not entertained them that much.

*Sorry hor Fad & Zack as i don't know what to say.

Zack have to go early cause he's going to the cemetry. and Fad stayed on. so me and Yani accompanied him at the carpark. he's working at 5pm but he don't think so he could go off at about 4.30pm cause it was still raining heavily. chit chat and crapped. stupidity him. haaa. he left at about 5pm plus and i headed back to the place and went to eat. ahaha. tk buat kendarat tapi gi mkn and ade mase uth berbual tapi mls nk tlg. huahua.

and yea, i was kinda frust for a while sia. ade bdk tudung nie dah la ambik aku nye slipper abeh bile da tegur tk tau nk kasi balik. nk kene sound sikit baru nk kasi. ape peh nye org. geram siak.

everything ended at about 6pm and i go and change to my home clothes and very the tired. sheesh. people kept calling me but i ignored it.

*Sorry you guys cause i kinda sleepy and slept early yesterday.

18/12/06
Results of N-Level

Woohooo! today's the day the i got my N-Level results.
quite happy and nervous.
met Reno, Aisha, Aini, Igaq, Syasya at Lot1.

ater reaching at school, couldn't wait for the results especially when you have to wait for them to finished their conversations. sheesh.

congratulations to Mag for being the FIRST TOP at Singapore for getting 4A1s. and yea, when its time to get my result, i couldn't wait sia. after getting to hold on to the results. OMG! i was so happy sia. i PASSED with 3 distinctions. next journey i hope to get in ''Beauty Theraphy' at Simei. woohooo. =))

16/12/06
City Hall, Bugis, Sim Lim Square, Fad's Homeplace, NUH & My Aunt's place

if Syahril didn't called me up, i think i would have continued my sleep.
haa. but when i received the call and was looking at the time, i was already late for Thumbs Up thingy.
called Syasya immediately and she also just wake up.
ahahaha. at least i do have accompany.
after that, i called Amie to give him a morning call as he's working later.

met up Syasya at CCK Mrt at about 11.30am, and while on our way to City Hall at 12pm, Dawm called us saying that the thingy has ended.
sheesh. waste of our time but met up with Dawn for a while and she gave a certificate each.

and so, go to Bugis and met up with Syahril and Tommy.
went to eat at Long John Silver.
after eating, went to Sim Lim Square to check out prices for the digital cameras.
saw Thaqif and his family.
sat down at the nearby coffee shop and chit chat till 3pm together with Syasya, Syahril and Tommy.

after 3pm, me and Syasya took bus going towrds Jurong Point cause we meeting someone at there.
ouhokay. Syasya rode off with Zali on motorbike while me took bus going to Fad's home.

went up to Fad's house and he played game.
ouhokay. after that hos mum called saying that he need to go to NUH to give his sister hp charger and Fad g and bathe.
while waiting for him to finished bathin, me watch tv and then his father reached home.
i was panicked for a while and i don't what to do.
ahaha. i talked to his father that i'm Fad's friend and his father automatically said you're Hanisa right?
alright then. his father seems cool and both of us had a friendly talk.
khekhe. i was relieved as i thought his father would be angry to see a girl in a house with a guy alone.
sheesh. hey, not to afraid.
me and Fad are just friends and seemed close together and while i was at his house we did nothing okay.

his father went to NUH taking bus and me and Fad took his motorbike.
hee. and after reaching to NUH.
met with his sister and mum downstairs and talked to each other.
i was so bloody afraid seh. hish.
but Fad kept insisting saying don't be afraid la.
and then met with his sis and brother in law and friends.
his sister just gave birth to a baby boy.
hee. Fad was so bloody afraid when holding the baby as it was his first time.
huahua.

saw Adai and the fellowmates at hospital by coincidence.
me and Fad left from the hospital at about 7pm plus and headed to Jurong West to my aunt's place as my cousin is getting married tomorrow.
Fad sent me there and then when i told him to follow me upstairs, he said he's too paisei.
khekhe. i go up and showed my face at my aunt's place and then come down again to see Fad.
ouhokay. sat down and chilled and was kind of bored.
he said he was hungry and wanted to go Pioneeer Mall.
by the time i want to go, my mum msged me saying go up and eat but Fad continued his journey to there and take away his food to bring it home.
thought of asking him to come down back after eating but it's kinda drag time.
i couldn't stand the pain in my eyes as i was wearing contact lenses.
i could stay back at my aunt's place and overnight but i didn't bring my belongings.
if i know, i had asked Fad to send me home and go and pack my bag and go back there.
so at night i could meet up with Fad again.
much more easier.
but i had to go home uh and took Mrt home.
sheesh.

anyway, i'm looking forward to Mon, Tues and Wed and Sat.
khekhe.

N-Level results will be released on Monday.
be at the school hall at 1.15pm.
=))

15/12/06
Al Azhar

went to Thomson Medical Centre to meet Yazid at his workplace.
after that send the uncle who works with him to his place at Yishun and met with Fad and Amie at Vista Point at Woodlands.
a whole night ride was totally exhausted.

proceed to Al Azhar and meet up with Hadi and Zack.
eat Nasi Pataya while Yazid eat Chocolate Prata.
looks kind of delicious but half of the pataya that is all i ate.
cause i was kind of full and bloated and i was so hot.
sheesh.

saw many Bukit Panjang peoples and was like looking towards us.
cause we teens were inside the van and followed by 2 motorbikes behind.
cool man as if we are being escorted by the 2 motorbikes.
ahahahahaha.

and then, me and Yazid went home by van.
while Amie, Fad, Hadi and Zack on motorbikes and go to somewhere else.

14/12/06
Bugis, Esplanade, Town & Fort Canning

went out to Bugis to meet Aini and Ekin. shopping for R.z present as his birthday. haaa. bought him a t-shirt which have a guitar desgin on it. its cool.

after that went to eat at Long John Silver and went for window shopping. khekhe. many things to look at and after i gotten my bonus, i want to go out for shopping. yea bebeh. woohoo~

ouhokay. after looking at the things already, walked to Esplanade and wanting to take a bus from there. while on the way to Esplanade, me, Aini and Ekin took some picture. ahaha.

after getting on bus 171 from Esplanade going to Far East to look around for cakes. from Far East to Paragon and then to Heeren and then to Cineleisure and then back to Paragon. OMG! imagine uh all those walkings that we have been going out from Bugis to Esplanade and now this. walau wei. AHACKS! =))

bought a ''Berry Blueberry'' cake from Bread Talk. its HALAL okay. (:

after we had bought the cake, proceed to Marina Square first to buy flour to sabo him. huakz! and so we went to Esplanade. wanted to surprised him buy Aini coming towards him with the cake but then he wasn't there. he was in the toilet. and so, we waited at the other side, a guy that we wanted to surprise him with the cake came from the way he shouldn't have come. the plan was ruined. the guys didn't know didn't know about it and Aini was feeling a bit dissapointed. so, R.z said he will come by the other way round and act as if nothing had happened. huergh. ouhokay. when Farouk gave the move, we brought forward the cake. haha. and sing the birthday song.

and after sabo-ing him. we got nothing to do. so they proceed to '' Fort Canning Park '' . go up the stairs in a breathless and perspiring us. i wanted to back off already cause i'm afraid. but they said just continue the journey. ouhokay. they're heading towards the keramat place. Aini saw it and was shocked as i can see it from her face as i know why she couldn't continue. R.z brought her down with continuing the journey and i wanted to follow her too cause i was bloody afraid already. but i didn't. i hold Ekin hands all the way and they went to the keramat and saw a black bird with an red eyes. i smelled very nice smells and i just looked down and kept msging and hold Ekin hands tightly. after that, walked down back and i don't even dared to look behind. after getting out of the place, i was so relieved. the journey ended there. if the next time someone would want to bring me to this kind of eerie place, i wouldn't want to go.

its good that i did get to contact with him.
at least we did contact with each toher rather than never.

but, the feeling for me to him is still there and i don't know how to make up my decision.
aarghh!

can someone tell me what should i do?
i simply don't know what to do.

i'm just afraid things will be worst for the both of us.
i can see that both of us are busy at the moment.
i'll try to settle things first before i make the decision.

i know there are many good guys outside.
but, my love for my only one is just not going to end just like that.
i really wish that i can get him back.
boohooo.

you know, it's hard to left him.

life will turns strong even many things turns around.
so, i shall not give up even without any perseverance.
='(

i'm back from Holland Village and then to BPP.
met Nana whom is my Ex cousin's.
on our way to Holland, we got lost.
khakha.

ouhokay. we went to Holland Shopping Mall and searched for the shop that she had to ill in the form for part-time job.
the sales assistant said they didn't received any phone calls saying that Nana had to come down.
ouhokay. but, they said just fill in her phone number.
so, walked around and we find went to Holland Shopping Centre.
we got mixed up between Holland Shopping Mall and Holland Shopping Centre.
haaa. finally, the woman said fill in the form.
so Nana filled in the form.

ouhokay. after that took 970 to go to BPP.
walau wei. bus sick uh.
i almost want to puke as i can't stand the condition of the bus.
what the hell.

after reaching to the destination and alighted near Nana's house first cause she want to change first.
ouhokay. waited for her then and proceed to BPP.
met with Berg, A.j and Is.
eat, play laptop and crapped.
ahaha.

funny sia as we watched ''Sex Zero' through laptop and see many unseen videos.
OMG! ahaha. watched in the public. nabu me.
haa.
we stayed there till 10pm and then went home.

working was kind of bored.
hurt myself during work.
sheesh.

the same people who always comes to Mcd.
showing off their faces and jokes around and asking for free foods.
they thought they are funny but simply they aren't.
they thought by showing off their faces everytime at Mcd, they thought they get attract by.
ahaha. simply they aren't good lookings and everytime when i see their faces, i want to puke.

while working during counter alone at 11pm to 12am.
i was running here and there like a mad girl.
ahaha.

i also did get to crap with the '' cute guys '' .
i love the cute ones and not the fatty ones.
ahaha.

they played and sang with my name and crapped away.
cool-ness.

finished work at 2am and took transport home.
and today, closing again.
sheesh.

9/12/06
VIVO CITY

we are just friends. (:

went to Vivo City with Fad. walked around and suddenly he pulled me cause he said he saw his family. haha. ouhokay. i understand. thought of seeing Tommy at Marks & Spencer but he weren't there. then, went to the rooftop and see the scenery was nice. both of us took pictures and see performance. wanted to see movies but all the movies were totally a boredom.

so we went to Plaza Singapura. checked it out what movies they have but all seems such a boredom too. khakha. so we went to eat at Long John Silver. he treated me.

* Thanks, Fad. (: *

after eating, we went to meet Zack and Hadi outside Raffles Hotel as they had finished work. and proceed to Esplanade. chit chat and crap all the way. hee. and there were police at some place. we saw many bloodstains on the floor. when we reached there, we didn't saw any bloodstains but when we wanted to leave from there, we saw many bloodstains. OMG!

and so, Hadi said his Ex wanted to see him. just want to hug him but Hadi got some other plans. ouhokay. we go ahead and went to Pioneer Mall to meet her. they talked and talked and after they had talked. i wanted to see who is the girl so Hadi walked with me together and when we saw them, i pointed out at her uh. haha. 'Step kerek uh pasal mau tolong si Hadi ma' and then we acted to go to 7-11 and went in and then go out and walked pass through them. i stared at them uh. hee.

and then me and Hadi sat down where Zack and Fad were. we crapped alot uh and Zack kept fartbomb. sheesh. and so we saw Hadi Ex walked away. she seemed happily walking uh and smoked but after a while she had crossed over to the other road, she stopped and make a fuss uh by acting uh being emotional. haha. walau wei.

so, we also walked off from there uh after Hadi and Zack finished smoking. went to Fad's place for a while to take his jacket. his brother in law and sis were looking down through the window. should be see me and Fad together. confirmed they will teased him. huergh.

ouhokay, after that we wanted to lepak but don't know where uh. thought of going Nature Reserve la and blah3. but Fad said he's bringing a pillion which is a girl la so he don't want to. afraid something would happen. ouhokay. called up Amie and meet him under his block. chilled around till 4am and then they send me home.

8/12/06.
ESCAPE THEME PARK.
For more pictures, go to sweetnessher.multiply.com

05/12/06
GIG @ GAS HAUS

went to gig at Gas Haus.
met with Yayan, Syasya and his friends at Bugis before proceeding to Gas Haus.
saw my cousin, Kak Didi and her friend at there too.
ahaha.

there was 'Cheroked', 'Inked Out', 'She for the theory', 'Anna judge april', 'Back by monday', 'Son of the bleach', 'Collision embraced', 'Last day out' & 'Blind meets mute'.

'Collision embraced' was my ex to perform.
we acted as though we don't know each other.
haaa. it seems it that way cause we didn't talked to each other.

'She for the thoery' was so damn powerful as the vocalist is a girl and her scream was nice.
i'm so jealous.
hurhur.

'Son of the bleach' was amazing too and it was my cousin's friends band.
they moshed and head bang as the musics goes on.

'Last day out' was my cousin's band.
yeehaaak. they were so powerful and had done their best.
moshing, head bang, stealing mikes to have their turn to sing.
haaa. amazing.

it ended at about 11pm plus.
i had great funs.
all those moshing, head banging and etc.

while i was away for a while during the gig, i went to eat with Syasya at LJS and saw many peeps down there.
went for a fast shopping spree at Bugis Village.
khekhe. bought my short pants and belt.
woohooo.
and i make a new friends too.

iloveEMILY.
she's so like a barbiedoll.
(:

3/12/06
MY ONLY ONE.

to my beloved, DEE. (:

i hope he does read these up.
haish. totally miss the old times we had together. how i wish i can return back to the time that we first gotten to know each other. yes. i really miss those times. seriously. don't you think so? hurhur. but its kinda bad. i miss spending times with you. all those, jokes, craps, laughs, being pampered by you, fooling around, fightings, working together and etc. yea, remember all those times? there were more to it. i hope you still DO remember it. hurhur. kinda sad to end the fairytales between us. sobs. ='( i never had spent a times with a guy special like you and had so many memories. all those beautiful memories. aargh. i sort of want to go back to time when we first met and get into a relationship after that. it took us long to get into a relationship. if there's another chance, i would give you a chance. darling, i hope we would be back together like last time if there's a chance. haish. but that is all my wishful thinking. ='(
I MISS YOU BADLY, DEE.
hurhur. its all complicated.

i'm so confused right now. i'm so frust with my own families and the others. aarghh.

2/12/06
BUGIS, ESPLANADE & MUSTAFA CENTRE

went out to BPP Mcd at about 3pm.
met with Aini, A.j, Angah, Aan, Kid & Man.
waited for Fad to come at about 5pm.

and then make a move to Bugis waited for Amie.
played arcade and ate at Long John.
saw my cousin, Awal. but he didn't realised me.
woohoo. his hair had changed into dreadlock.
and i saw my good friend, Ikah.
she shocked me again and again.
haaaa. miss her sia.

after that, proceed to Esplanade.
saw many many cultures down there.
skinhead, punk, ska & etc.
and watched performances at 8.45pm.
after the performances has ended at about 10pm plus, waited the clock to strike 11pm cause Amie wanted to check if his pay has come in.
sheesh.

so after checking, Amie took bus while me and Fad went elsewhere.
went to Mustafa Centre to survey for his perfume.
sheesh. i smell many many awful smells.
khakhakha.

he didn't bought the perfume instead bought something else.
huergh.
ouhokay. then he send me at Fajar Mcd and i go buy food and went home.
reached home at about 12am.
ouhokay. till here then.
i got to catch some sleep as i'll be working at 9.30am.
wooohooo.

1/12/06
UNKNOWN

i'm so sorry.
but if you are telling me i am suck.
i think you are more 'sucker' than me than just any bitch like me.
hahahahaha.

to whoever the person is saying that words to me,
maybe you're jealous that you can said those words to me but there's no one to said it to you.
but if i gotten to know you, don't ever apologise to me.
dream on uh to whoever you are.
and i don't deny that i'm a bitch.

Nistar Nisa(:

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