if you want me, then fight for me, because i'm fighting like hell for you.

on this date, you ignored me for the whole entire day without texting nor calling me but nevertheless i stopped myself from thinking about you.

looking at your status on facebook, i know how excited you feel about getting back your drz with his new look after doing the 1st decall onto it, i'm glad that you are happy.

i remembered how you stood me and fighting all over decal and full face helmet.

now you got it after all i guess now you will be focusing more on your drz<3

you know your drz<3 is much more precious than i do, i felt it.

i'm always there for you but you can't take my love for granted please.

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i miss soccer, can we set a date and play soccer soon pretty please?

hopefully we can gather everyone again and have some fun on our morning shift before starting fasting as well.

let's have a game.

oh well i can't believe you can't change over this and i never thought that this would be happening.

after all, i guess my leave are going to be burnt again this weekend. =/

but i hope that you can prove me wrong it's not.

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a piece of good news, i passed my traffic police practical test on my first attempt which is so unbelievable.
a mixed feelings but i prayed hard that i would pass so i put my mindset on a positive thinking.

when it was ready to start after calling out my name, in my heart i goes " oh my god! my tester is damn fierce. "
well what have i got to say for myself?
just go ahead and do what am i supposed to do so he instructed me and even guided me, that was really shocked.
i didn't expected my tester to guide me along but i know i was feeling all nervous and he scolded me for horse riding by not having enough trainings.
duh -.-
seriously i feel like asking him to shut his mouth cause for all the things i have said, he simply doesn't want to believe me.
but i know i was rude towards him and he told me that i'm very friendly.
nyehahas(:

once everything done back to bbdc and he slammed that door.
i know for sure i flung the test.
while waiting for him at the waiting area, my left and right side all passed and they were overjoyed by the news.
while it's my turn, he stared at me and scolded me saying i need a lot of trainings and i looked down and say okay i do need more training then he stared again and looked at me but covering the result slip in front of him and say, " nah you passed! congratulations. "

i go, gu gu ga over his words and i can't believed that i passed.
yahooooo!

i broke the news to the boy and the fact is, i told him a lie and started to act crying saying i failed but he make me wants to laugh so badly till i mentioned that i passed and all his backgrounds sounds full of joys.
next was my daddy and mummy and they were really proud of their daughter followed by friends.
nyehahas(:

so now yeah i can start driving, woohooooo! (:

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dear yusof khai,

all i ever wanted is the best for our relationship, nothing else matters.
of all the happiness we shared despite the months we know each other is not important at all.
what is important is that the both of us love each other.
wake up to all your senses and believe my words that i love you.
burnt the past, it's time to let go.

how much i miss you and you behaving this manner, i chose not to think negative anymore.
i'm going to stay focus and think positive about our relationship and remember your promises.
i marked your words and i will always remembered it.
i do not want my life to lead to nowhere and just want to settle down.

Labels: to begin with.

i miss him but his words are too harsh for me to accept.

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Labels: lost of words.

we were supposed to watch movies but in the end he mentioned to me that he is way too lazy to go out and i got frustrated at him.

the next moment, i put down the phone and texted him saying, " if you not going out then i will, bye! "

instead i took my own sweet time doing my own things and only then he replied me in half an hour time.

he: " i was just joking, can't you take a joke? "
she: " if you think this was just a joke then what else you are thinking of having a back up plan? "
he: i thought of going karaoke just the both of us. "

less than a minute, he called me up and asked what am i doing but i told him a white lie saying i'm preparing to get ready to go out eventually i was muching away my snacks and watching tv.
so he told me since i'm getting ready, he's fetching me in a while and persuade me to go town.

i got up and quickly run in towards my cabinet and look out for something to wear nice on this hot weather and in half an hour he's already ready to fetch me and lucky that i got myself prepared that fast and when i reached down to meet him he gave me a look and i thought something is wrong with my dress code but uh uh.

this time we both brought out the gilera for a ride and off we went to town and after spending round and round to search for a carpark, he decided to park at takashimaya and at the end of the day carpark fees cost to $13.

today objective to get a pair of shoes but since we are run out of ideas, we had dinner specially at pastamania cineleisure.
browse around for some shoes after dinner and he asked me to get nike ninja shoes identical to his so he wants to feeling-feeling cute couple having the same kind of shoes.
nyehahas(:

continued walking browsing for some stuffs and he hold my hand and pull me towards his direction just to bring me to ax & mont blanc shops to see if the things i have been wanting is available.
who knows great chances he wants to see what i have been eyeing on, he will get it for me one day.

towards wisma, the boy gets for me a bag of famous amos.
while at takashimaya walked around to kill the time while waiting for dave to arrive, we went food hunting again.
i purposedly told him if i ask you to get auntie anne's make sure he gets if for me here especially my caramel and the next thing he told me likewise but his is mochi.
we simply bought a lot of foods today but all were kept at the seats first, so convenient.

dave reached with his new gilera and we went to marsiling as dave wants to bet on the soccer team for spain world cup and i waited for them at the carpark and coincidently saw his uncle and girlfriend.

next route off to meet his brother to exchange back with his drz at yishun and only after things are done, back to normal again with my drz so no more gilera.

next time perhaps or maybe should i take bike licence and go for gilera?

nyehahas(:

once the boys are done, off to yat's place and off to play dirty at sembawang whereby no one disturbs you and they become the mat rempits singapore and i had fun too playing with dave gilera while the boy become my pillion.

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oh well my peaceful sweet dream got disturbed by the boy and mum asking me to go for ndp preview as they have gotten the tickets, i rejected it in the first place as i was sick and i'm just afraid that i wasn't able to spend time with the boy.

am i being selfish?
maybe just a little as today was our anniversary that's why i just want us to have an ample time to well spend our day together.

after the boy persuade me to go, i decided to follow the flow with him, his mum, daffyna and her friend.

we were all at the yellow seats and let me tell you this time round ndp is quite bored but i like the part when the plane come past by and the fireworks.

after the ndp ends, we separated and the boy was so sweet enough to send me off at bugis and i had my last minute manicure while he meet up with his friends for a while and once i'm done, i called him and he fetched me.
awww, such a sweetheart.

we both have similar thoughts as always and thought of eating at east coast park to have our late dinner and we had a big feast just the both of us having 3 main dishes.
both of us were really hungry and the dishes were all gone except for my cereal sotong.

it was well spent for the yummylicious foods and equality time spend together is so beautiful, just perfect especially today marks our anniversary.

the boy ask, " you really do want to spend time together with me uh? "
and i replied, " of course i do. "

its been quite sometimes we didn't spend time with each other and it sure brings me a hard impact of feeling lonely, lost of hopes.

thanks for giving me the loves today my boy.

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it happens that i was sick caught with flu, sore throat and fever on my leave day which is not a good sign.

whereas the boy wasn't able to have his nights off today and i didn't expected that bestie syasya would called me up and asked me along for fishing so i decided to follow the flow but with the boy permission.

i was early and so ekal's brother fetched me from yew tee and ride off to their place and then make a move by taking public to lim chu kang.

together with bestie syasya, ekal, adik and hanafi we went for fishing and we had a good time for sure as mostly it was one of a lucky day that we caught a lot of fishes and now i know how to hook for a fish so the next time, pray hard to catch lots of fishes.

Labels: lucky day.

its unbearable if you going to push me away alone.
i need someone to give me the attention that i need.

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Labels: leave it.

today evening you will be going away for a 3 days trip over at the jungle, losing you is just hard enough but i just think this is just another day.

by, you know by the time you are away i will be feeling remorseful and i just couldn't wait for november to come by and you are free from army.

please forgive me for all those sayings and i know you are trying to give me the best of all a couple would love to have and all i could do is to feel paranoid over you.
i'm really sorry, could you forgive me?

it does shows me that i love you so this time i hope that i could set my mind free.

what a fucking fucking fucking messed up day today!
work is hectic for me and you are just clueless about it and whats happening right now cause you are unable to make things better for me.

i wish the best for myself and to prove i'm able to do it but no people just don't see and appreciate for the things we have done instead what they feel is just another option to them.

another thing, do you know you have cheated my feelings?
it hurts to feel this way as its not a good thing which everyone knows that, i supposed.

what people chose to say about you, i acted as if i heard nothing but do you know that it actually hurts me but to put on a smile and i do not want anyone to think oh you played the bad guy in the scene.

i pretended all these saying weren't true cause i just want to believe on both of my eyes only then i would rather believe it which actually i'm seeing it for real.

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i have heard way too many stories about you but you told me that you just want to be with me which you only have feelings for me and love me.

let's just hope your words are convincing enough to make me trust you.

never i want to feel heart break again this time round.

all i ask for is for you to be loyal and faithful towards me, my boy.

if you think you just want to play me out, your life won't be like a piece of cake.
never have a feelings to let me go cause if you do, i will just step you down and never got a way to able to stand up.

once you let go, you won't be able to mend back the pieces that you had already broke it.

as i mentioned before, what goes around comes around.

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oh well plan was spoilt when i already have planned for a dinner then it was raining heavily which the boy was supposed to fetch me after work instead ask me to go his place whereas he have yet to book out and so i drop off at marsiling together with nurul and when i checked my pay it has yet to be credited and there were some chaotic problems between agency and hr, fucked up.

this is the reason why i hate this thing happened at the wrong timing.

i scolded the whoever picks up the call from the agency and got to find out they ask me to read the email they have send to me.

it was invalid reason given and when monday comes, we are so going to speak out about this bullshit thing.

hmph!
not to vent frust anymore, i just chill out for a while and i bump into fiq.
nyehahas(:
we stopped and had a lil short conversation and accompanied me till the rains stopped but it seems that the boy mum and bro knew i was at marsiling when they called me and asked me to wait at the bus stop and drove to his granny's place with victory murtabak, yummylicious.

upon reaching, they thought i was baiji's girlfriend and they laughed.

by then the boy already have called me and waited for his arrival at granny's place.

he was looking pale and sick but still wants to act cool like nothing has happened.

we all had murtabak and the boy needs to go home first to take his 11b card before wanted to proceed to go causeway point eventually i accompanied him and by the time he reached home he complained about his headache and feeling all weak.

persuade him to eat his medicine, he declined.

as he wanted to be sick so sunday he could take mc for himself as to escape from the outfield on tuesday.

chacha also just reach home and i was busy playing with games while the boy was already at his bed wanted to sleep when he keeps shouting and chacha thought it was for his calls but it was for me.
all he wanted me to do is to bring him a cup of plain water, manja sangat betul ini anak eh.
let him have his nap while me played his iphone and chacha played his ps3 games.

such a pity that his sick so theres a needs to take care of him so he could have a speedy recovery.
by the time his mum and baiji reached home, i did not wake him up which i'm supposed so to do it.
baiji disturbed him when he was sleeping and it was funny to see his reaction.

the mum asked me if the boy has promised to send me back home but i did declined cause looking at his situation his sick so the mum offered me to ask baiji to drive me home after all and with all the paper bags that was filled in with clothings that the mum has given me and i took a sneak preview at my adidas shoes and was glad to bring it back home.
nyehahas(:
together with the mum they send me home while the boy was asleep but just before i gave him a peck of kiss but he didn't realized it.

Labels: spoilt day.

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