if you want me, then fight for me, because i'm fighting like hell for you.

30/11/06
AGITATED

had been working and busy and that's why i've not been updating my stuffs.
sheesh.
i'm not in the mood these few days.
haish. stress. confused. agitated.
why is these so?
i'm myself not sure.
hmmm.

i'm controlling my patience right now cause i'm not amused by something which i heard recently.

//* i am who i am and not what you want me to be.
if you don't like it, get LOST.

you don't know the real me and you act as though you know me the best.
what nonsense are you crapping about.
and if you don't know the real me, don't act as if you truly know me the best.
just buzz off, stranger.
don't act big if you aren't.
i don't expected a guy like you who is a jerk with a big ego trying to get me.
and sorry if you didn't get me cause i won't be picking a guy just like you.
i got a better taste rather than having a guy with a big EGO.
i hate guys who have a big EGO.
OMG! for goodness sake.
don't dissapoint yourself man.

19/11/06.

went out with Fad and he picked me up under my block.
going to Bugis to do his motor shirt.

huergh! half way through, it was drizzling but we continued our journey.
get a bit lost when getting on our journey to Bugis.
huakz! Fad got the wrong way to get to Bugis.
but we did managed to get to our destination to Bugis.

went in to the motor shop and asked for my opinions to design for his motor shirt.
heh. he wanted to do for me too with my name on it.
ahaha. what a joke man.

after that walked around at Bugis for a while to look for his arm warmer.
and he wanted to treat me to something that i like but i told him NO and kidding around.
high and low searching for the arm warmer but couldn't find it and went to Far East.
search for the same thing at Far East but also couldn't find it.
i mean he did find it but he couldn't find what he actually wanted.
the colour and the design.

when we couldn't find it, went to Burger King and ate.
chit chat while eating.
sheesh.

it was 4pm by the time we had finished eating and supposingly meeting Syasya & Aini at BPP at that time.
called her and she said she's on the way and i'm glad i wasn't late.
ahaha.

collect Fad bike and he drove me to BPP.
he was also late for his work but he don't mind cause his manager haven't called him yet and thought of not going.
sheesh.

while reaching to BPP at the traffic light, Fad pointed out Syasya.
she didn't realised it at all and i kept pointing at her and straight away she folded her arms and blinked away.
khakha. she didn't realised it was me and somemore i was on bike with Fad.
yea, i know why she did it that way.
it took her a while to recognise me.
huergh.

after he sent me at BPP, i realised his cashcard was with me.
i forgotten to give it back to him.
sheesh.

met Syasya and waited for Aini and proceed to town back again.
sheesh.
ate 'Fried Mars Bars' at Far East.
it's totally nice. YUMYUM! (:

stayed at town till 7pm plus and then go back.
cause got nothing to do and Aini had to go home early while Syasya got some problems.
took MRT home and Aini dropped atYishun while i drop at Cck and Syasya to Bukit Gombak.
while i was otw to LRT, saw Yazid and asked me to accompany him go meet his friends studying at Jurong East Library.

met with Lan, Prem, Mahen and one chinese guy whom i don't know at the Library.
they studied and i was bored cause go nothing to do.
msged with Fad and saying that he went to work.
sheesh.

after they finished studying, went to ate Long John Silver but i ate Macroni which i bought earlier on at the Pasar Malam.
eat eat eat. talk talk talk. crap crap crap.
haaaa.

Fad msged saying that he will meet us later after he finished his work cause he wants to study for the test.
so we went to this block and chill out there and they continued studied.
i got nothing to do and listen to MP3.
waited for Fad about 10pm then he reached.
heh. met him again cause earlier on we had met each another going to Bugis.
sheesh.

they studied and crap while studying.
huergh.

went home at about 11pm plus.
sheesh.

20/11/06.

wake up early for the stupid Mcd thingy about the new concept that's coming up.
haaa. i'm so lazy and Aini gave me morning calls.
gee. thanks. meet her first at BPP Interchange and Wani was with her too.
went to the meeting together lor.
it was a very long meeting.
OMG! and i was so hungry that i asked Shida for a 20pieces nuggets so that we all could share.
ahahaha.

after eating, sit down with Aini, Wani, Jason and Titus.
chit chat and crapped while waiting for Wani's siblings to come.
as we are going to town.
called Syasya too and asked her if she wants to follow.

so we meet up at BPP and proceed to town.
went to Wheelock to collect Wani's handphone.
then ate at Far East and then to Taka and chill around there.

kinda bored and we played 'Dare Game'.
each of us had to be dared.
khakha.

we had to be dared at the middle of town and had to be humiliated by.
huakz! but we did enjoyed. at least there's joy rather than sitting around and do nothing.
hee.

and then i msged Fad asking where is he and thought of chilling with him but he was at Vivo City.
he asked me if i wanted to join him and the rest but i will be alone uh cause the other will be going somewhere else.
sheesh. i decided to go to Vivo City cause it's too early to go home.
heh. and when getting to Vivo City, i took the wrong way to go Harbourfront and instead i went to Little India.
huergh. what a bother.
met Fad, Fadil, Hadi, Amie, Reza, Haikal, Sarina and etc at Banquet.
i get lost for a while while searching for Banquet.
LOL.

they ate and i chat with Fad.
went there not for long because before i came, they had looked around.
so after that had eaten, went back and took the same bus with Amie & Haikal.
the journey was damn long.
grrr. and my butt was in pain.
khakha.
Amie & me alighted at the same destination while Haikal to Woodlands.
reached home at about 8.30pm.

Amie msged me asking me to accompany him to go out for shopping and then see movie.

i was so rushing for time as i have to meet him at 2.30pm at Fajar.
when i met him already went to Bugis.

searched for his shoe.
but he had in mind the shoes that he want to get and so we went in to look and he bought the green shoes.
woah. and next thing, look for his short sleeve shirt
look around at few shops, but it doesn't suited him.

went in to this 1 shop when 2 ladies approached him while i was waiting for him outside.
i was wondering what he was talking to them.
haha. and this lady apologised to me for nothing.
i think maybe she don't want me to get the wrong idea between her & Amie.
i wanted to laugh but i controlled and just smiled at her.
she just wanted to ask Amie for the opinion that this lady pick a shirt for someone.
haha. what a joke.

me & Amie are just friends.
=))

went to a nearby coffee shop to eat.
i ate Chicken Rice and was totally awesome but i couldn't finished it.
Amie ate noodles with chopsticks and he doesn't know how to use it and have to teach him.
khakha.

after we had eaten, went to Bugis Junction to book a place for two to see movie.
we booked seats for two and pick the movie 'Step Up'.
coincidentally. saw Amie's friend with the girlfriend and they were also watching 'Step Up' with the same time with us.
heh.

we still got few minutes time before the movie starts and went Bugis Junction to look around for his shirt again.
finally, he bought 1 that he thinks he likes it and yea after he tried it on, it was not bad after all.
and the salesgirls thought i was his boyfriend and said that,
'Later your girlfriend will be impressed'
and i was totally amused by and told them we are not girlfriend & boyfriend.
haaa.

so after that went to buy the popcorn and drink and then went inside the movie theatre.
we were so loud and lost cause we can't see where was our seatings and it was freaking dark.
in the end, we sat down at any seats that's available and near to Amie's friend.
khakha.
they were so kecoh uh.
the show was not bad after all and cried at the scene when Skinny died and i was so freaking cold and Amie lended his jacket to me.
thanks to Amie for preparing to bring a a jacket
aha.
the movie ended at about 6pm plus and msged with Yani my cousin.
wanting to fool them and meet them later on cause both me & Amie got plan.
huakz! and we don't want them to know we are together.

Yani meeting Hadi, Yazid and Sarina at Arab Street at night about 8pm.
so we got nothing to do and went to play pool at Pool Fusion.
hee.
played pool for about 1hour.
and we received a phone calls and msges saying that 'Amie ngan Nisa eh!! Kite nmpk!!'
khakha. kecoh uh. wanting to surprise my cousin and don't want to let her know that i'm with Amie.
sheesh. and it was revealed only then when we see them.
haa. the secrets were revealed cause at the first place, i said i was with Fad not to let them suspect but i didn't thought that they would call Fad and it was being told.
hurhur.

went sheesha-ing at Arab Street Al-Majlis with them and Yani's friends were there too.
heh.
Yazid & Sarina left home early and so do Yani's friend.
but me, Amie, Hadi & Yani stayed a bit later.
cause Hadi will drive us home by car.
hee.
reached home at about midnight.

my life now is complicated.
but i got to get over it soon.
hmm. though it's hard.
i had been thinking lots of things while i'm at home or at work.
yea, that's right.
complicated huh?
='(

i know i do still loves him.
haish.

well nisa nisa. you're such a weak person.
thinking that it might helps you but instead you're going to get taken advantage of.
yea, thanks to my girlfriends & boyfriends for giving times and times of advices and scolded me.
you're still young to believe in these all love stuffs.
so now, i'm going to be strong and cherished everyones that have been with me all these while.
(:

enough of that huh. have not been updating so lately eh?
yea. i try to eh to update soon all these mess and trying to look for a new skin for my blog.
hmmm.

15/11/06.

working at Coffee Bean from 4pm to 12am.
had so funs while working. so much joyful bebeh.
but when going home something stupid happened to me sia.
AHACKS! =)

the moment i stepped of the transport when going home, my left foot got into a hole.
nabu. Farouk, Razzaaq, Hanz was laughing excitedly. haaa.
yea, thanks Hanz for the help. *BLUSH*
khekhe. i also don't know it gotten there cause my mind was somewhere else.

16/11/06.

worked at Coffee Bean from 10am to 6pm.
waited for the two gundus to come to work and they're late.
i was rushing to go to Suntec meeting my cousin and his Ite Dover peeps.
(Yazid, Mahen, Amie, Reza, Singh & Lan)

went for the 'Motorshow' at Suntec.
reached there about 7pm plus.
bought the ticket and my senior from CCKSS gave me lots of ice-cream tickets for free.
i gave out some to the Ite Dover peeps cause i'm sick and cannot eat lots of ice-cream.

there were lots of fantastic cars around and pretty models.
not all were preety models. haa.
what me & Amie cannot stand is when this so called pretty model started to pose like flirting ones, we turn back and walked off.
haha.
there were goodies bag.

went to eat at Marina at about 9pm plus.
while eating msged Fad and stupid sia Singh and Reza are so annoying.
always criticize each other. hehe.
silly them.
when going home time, Reza, Singh, Mahen and Lan proceed to Jurong East to meet Fad.
he just do paintwork to his bike.
ILIKEHISBIKE. (: very nice paintwork.

while the others going home, me and Fad went elsewhere on his bike.
we went to a spooky place sia. went to Jurong Hill.
nice scenery and nice view but kinda spooky.
haha. talk talk talk and crapping till non-stop.
i've no idea you were feeling cold and i felt so spooky but not too cold shiverings.
went back at 1am + and reached my destination at 2am.

* Fad, thanks for the ride and i enjoyed the place where you brought me to.
it has a nice scenery but spooky.

i'm on MC today.
so cannot work today.
i wanted to go to work but i cannot help it cause i'm so damn weak and my throat hurts.
i hope Ijah is alright with today's shift.

went to poly with Syasya and then headed to Zizie's house.
while waiting for her to prepare, we watched movie.
nice sexy sexy chicks.
woohooo.
(Syasya, you know what i mean)
AHACKS! XD

after that, we went town.
i was so drowsy during that time and after i reached town walked for a while and go home but the others proceeded.
msged with Fad and accompany me till i got home.
and after this, i'm going to bed.

tmr's CAPTAIN BALL COMPETITON.
wakaka. i hope i can make it tmr due to my bad situation.
my voice totally sucks but Fad likes it cause it sounds like a rocker voice.
mama rock. haaa.
till here then. ='(

woohooo.
today at work was fun and getting to know more friends.
yeehaaak. (:

get to know Ijah the manager, Maria, Herman, Fidi & Sham.
Fidi face look a like with Bashir.
ahaha. they are brothers. not real brothers.
Fidi & Sham called me Sis at first but after that they called me gangster.
aha. cause they asked for my name and i told them off saying that ''can't you see on my nametag''.
khakha. and from there they called me gangster.
dumbass.

6pm is time for me to punch out but Aini & Syasya was nowhere to be seen.
called them but both of them didn't answered.
huergh. so i extended myself another 30mins but still have not yet to come.
but i received a message thinking it was them but it was Fad.
huahua. so happy sia. and then they came at 6.40pm.
finally. and they asked to go play pool at Bukit Timah and we went there.
i asked along Fad and his friend.
they came along in their ITE uniform.
hee. Fad always criticize me and jokes around.
so long time i never played pool and everything was in mess.
khakha. ended the game at about 9.30pm + and then headed to Al-Azhar to eat.
but, Fad and his friend have to go.
it's alright. but luckily they came.
so left me & Syasya. we headed home at about 11.00pm +

so now, msging with Fad.
and thanks Abdul Seth Fardridz for coming down.
(:

i'm starting a new job this Wed at Coffee Bean at Guthrie House.
woohoo.

Bashir recommend me work at there.
AHACKS! XD

thanks to him for talking with the manager.
the manager asked me somequestions and just told me to report on this Wed without asking me to fill in the form.
ishish.

yea, in the mean time right now.
currently talking with Syasya; my girlfriend. (:
thanks to her. she helped me a lot and its kind of fun to be with her.
hope tmr she will get the job at Vivo City.
hee;)

yea, i'm feeling sick right now.
too sick. coughing and couhing and having a fever and better still losing my voice.
grrr.

and, i'm feeling low right now.
crying for something.
i don't know sia what's going to happen?

is this for real or was it just a fake?

i don't know sia and i'm so confused.
bloody confused.

just a message will make me lose my confidence on someone.
deeply dissapointed.

thanks Harris & Syasya for helping out to give me good advices.

haven't been online these few days due to computer breakdown.

grr.

this wed starting a new job & Sat i have a captain ball competition.
wohoo.
(:

yea, have been going out for Hari Raya with friends.
the most enjoyable ones is when i got to go out with the ITE DOVER peeps.
15 peoples altogether.
we went by 2 cars followed by 2 motorbikes.
i went with my cousin car.
hee;)
what i cannot stand is, every people house we went have to eat.
OMG! i was so full that about 1 to 2 places, i skipped.
bloated uh. khakha.
yea, took pictures and have the party going.
at first, i was shy uh cause i only know some peeps but luckily my 2 cousins were with me.
mostly i with my lovely cousin, Suria.
hee;) she is so happy to get someone's number.
ahaha. opps! XD
she always say he's cute and can't resist of looking at his cute face.
huakz! (: i can't said his name or else she would kill me.
hey, there's this 1 guy, Haikal with a dimple face.
i like his face cause he got a dimple.
yea, i also got to know Dil with the motorbike,
he's so gentlemen and he's a bit pityful but cares for a friend.
hey Dil, if you got any problems, you can just share it with me aight.
i'm always here for you; friend.
(:

Nistar Nisa(:

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