if you want me, then fight for me, because i'm fighting like hell for you.

i just came back from Clementi at my auntie house.
Abg Adie and Kak Reen like finally get engange.

dad fetched me at BPP.
so Sleepyhead send me to the taxi stand.
then headed to the ESSO first before proceeding.

people like told me what's worn with me?
i look pale.
gwahgwah.
indeed i am as i'm sick.

i received lots of chocolates.
Ferrero Rocher is a absolutely super nice.
plus many more chocolates and snacks.

i super super loves chocolates.
and mum keep nagging saying that i'm sick still wants to eat chocolates.

a lot of peoples get the virus from me.
sheesh.
especially cough.
erheemm.

oh well, when i went online a lot of people started to chat up with me.
cool-shits.

well well well, Tommy Darling is going away for camp.
and obviously i didn't get to follow cause due to the late response.
hurhur.
next time i should go then.
hmph!
he miss me cause that what he said.
and i shall miss you back Tommy.

PS: don't get the wrong idea okay, Sleepyhead. (:

thanx 4 taking care of fad for me..
i'm sorry if i take ur away ur happiness from him...
i know u were very happy riding his bike...
i'm happy too...
once again thanx..
if u ever wants him back plz tell me..
it seems that u n him have this chemistry that cant be hide..
take care nisa..
thanx alot...

HUH? what do you mean by sending me this, girl?
can you like try to get the whole right facts before shooting me with all these words you are saying?
what is past is past uh.
why bring back the matters back.
ya, i used to ride on his bike but during that time both of you are just an ex and not officially together back together.
get this fucking words through your mind okay?!
me and Fad are just friends.
its true that we used to like each other but i have always treated him as a friend.
and we never ever get into a relationship before.
what's the point of being with him during that time when i still have a feelings on my ex?
and telling you honestly, i can't accept the way you are saying these words to me.
do you get it?
don't try to be sarcastic, girl.
if you're still not happy with it, ask Fad for my number and we can settle things.
and i shall bring my Boyfriend.
get the right facts before you want to say it all to me.

and i'm not a bitch or biatch to steal away people boyfriends.
i always stick to one person whom i love.

i'm telling you at this kind of situation that's happening, i don't like it to happen.
don't test my patience, that's all.
and don't ever misjudged me and your beloved Fardridz.

i'm so fucking bored at home.
all i ever did today was stayed at home and do nothing.
i slept, eat and playing comp.
that is all i did for today.

called my clans and Sleepyhead, all were busy and talking with their boyfriend & girlfriend.
haaaaa.

didn't meet Sleephead today and hardly to talk on the phone with him.
huergh.

Sentosa on SAT is being cancelled.
i was looking forward and so do Yayan.
but, it seemed that everyone hold back and sayin g they got to work and stuffs.

tmr will be meeting both Syasya and Tommy at CCK before i went for work.
aaaargghhh!
my schedule for tmr will be working midnight shift.
hurhur.

i told them too many times i don't want work midnight shift but still they put me in the schedule.
what the hell.

i've given them my new schedule for this March to April holidays.

Mon - Fri ( except for Thurs )
1pm to 8.30pm

Sun
2pm to 6pm

Sat will be an off day for me.
i told them i joined back the leadership course so i'm unable to work on Sat.
so that i could go out and spent time with my Sleepyhead.
boohoo.

i'm looking forward for this coming chalet o n 6, 7 & 8 April.
YAY! (:
Reena's family, Achik's family and cousins plus me, Aini, Nana, Haikal, Shane and etc will be coming along.
woohoo.
it will be a 3 days and 2 nights chalet.

and boohoo, i'll not be meeting Sleepyhead then.
it's my turn to have fun.
blueks! =)

ouhokay, now chatting with some peeps.
soon, i guess i'll be sleeping if no one wants to entertain me.
haaa.

you're everything that i always wanted, Sleepyhead. (:

i'm not asleep.

discussing with some peeps about this SAT thingy while chatting with some guys.
wooohooo.
i'm looking forward to this SAT.
going to Sentosa with all my peeps and i hope Sleepyhead could come along.

this coming SAT at 10am.
meet up at Bukit Panjang.

Marq had send me the pics that we took.
in fact, he was the one who took it.
took pictures of my stupid faces only.
and keep saying that i look like one of this artist.
booohooo.

we shall meet up again one day my dearest cute friend, Marq. (:

ouhokay, today it's kind of sad day for my best friend, Aini.
it's about relationship.
poor thing. the one that she loves deeply is playing with her heart.
she cried at the moment when she saw the pictures of someone.
it's kind of obvious what he had did as obviously Aini can't trust him anymore.
tsktsk. i thought he was a good guy but it turns out different.
what the hell.

but, it's a happy day for my another best friend, Syasya. (:
also, about relationship.
finally, she needn't worried too much about things which is not her's totally.
ahaha. i'm happy for her.

but for me?
i'm happy but not totally happy.
i feel disappointed for some reasons.
haish.
but never mind, my two best friends and Sleepyhead will always be there for me.
cause i love them more than ever.
so do i love anyone that loves me too.
wakakakakaka.

and yea, i'm worried if Sleepyhead will leave me one day.
i don't want the same thing happened again.
seriously and never, i wouldn't want.

i want to make Muhammad Hazli the happiest guy because i love him more than any of his ex girlfriends had. (:

it's been a few days since i blog.
just no time to blog these few days.

i had been sick these few days.
now having a sore throat and a bit fever.
hurhur.

my leg now got red marks due to playing soccer with Clinton, Roi and Shaik yesterday at pondok.
boohoo. but, i have a great time.

Sleepyhead, you should be amazed by me.
ahahaha.

3 days had passed since he went for chalet.
and dearest should be going back home soon, TODAY!
i'm happy i'm happy.
guess why is it so?
after 2days no contacting with each other, he msged me while i'm sleeping.
wooohoooo.
he said he love me.
awwww! and i love him too, my dearest Sleepyhead.
boohoooo. (:

but too bad, if he's going back today.
i won't be meeting him, i guess.
i'll be home quite late today.

i'll be going to my cousin first house and then proceed to gig at MDIS.
so, i won't be seeing you again today.
haish.

boohooo.
dearest Sleepyhead, i miss you so badly.
you were gone for three day without being by my side.
i need you to be by my side, once again.
i love you, dearest Sleepyhead.
*MWAKSS*

ouh yeah, Fad chatted with me at MSN after so long we didn't meet up.
i'm not 'sombong' okay, Fad.

okay, i'm going to bathe now and get prepared myself and go to my cousin house.
toodless.

i'm really quite pissed off for now about the projects.
what the hell?
everyone seemed to do their own things.
where are the teamwork?

i thought of playing pool but then no friend.
never mind uh.
i guess i will be in totally boredom for today.
boredom strikes again.

Husaini asked me out but i turned him down.
Syasya called me in the morning for what i don't know?
and i received private calls way too many.
and irritating guy msged me.

basically, i'm not in the mood.
one by one people keep making me fcuked up.

i think i'll be going out alone later.
want to relax my mind.
really, i need some space.

and i felt that someone is going away far far far away from me.

today, didn't go to school.
told NATT to go ahead without me; and she also didn't turned up for school.

too tired and woke up at 10am plus and my abg sedare was at home repairing the computer.
told my mum that i don't want to go to school and then went downstair for a while to bought breakfast.

Karate lessons for today also was being cancelled as Andi called me up.
(macam tau gitu, plan baru tak nak pergi)

then slept again and woke up around 3.30pm.
called Sleepyhead and he's still on the bed.

called again at about 4pm and asked him to accomapny me go eat uh at Greenridge and we did.
met him at 5.30pm at there.

by the time finished eating, called mum and she haven't got out from house.
so followed Sleepyhead to pondok and then recieved mum's call.
took Lrt and saw mum and Abg Lan inside the train.
went to Millennia Institute for my sis school briefing by the principal.
i told you, it's kinda boring and i keep fidgeting.
khakha.

the thing started at 7pm to 9pm.
i saw many hot chinese guys.
woohooo. (:

uh huh, some people stared at me.
wtf.

took bus 178 and stopped behind Bp Lrt and then took the Lrt home.
waduh waduh.
and now, i'm online.
jeng jeng.

Hazli: I miss you laa dearest.
Syasya: I guess you have to tolerate some things but don't dwell on the matters too much aight?
Aini: I love you, kecik. 4 years and 3 Months of Friendship. (:
Vincent: We will have a reunion soon.
Natt: Happy 2 Months of friendship.
Bashir: Where have you been? Didn't contact me. Huergh.
Fad: I miss you but so sad you didn't want to contact me anymore.
Dee: You really make me pissed off.
Afad: Badot, when wanna meet again?
Yani: Happy 20th Birthday, cousin love. (:

i'm back home.
i'm so so freaking tired.

for all today class was so slack.
today, there's was a cleansing, eyebrow-shaping and make-up mock-exams.
my partner was NATT(:
my teacher give me a compliments by saying ''GOOD'' when doing the make-up and i was feeling so so good already.
khekhe.
the mock-exams lasted for 3hours.
woohooo.

finished school today at 5pm and kinda break-record uh.

went home alone from school.
i just don't know why when i was inside the Mrt, i almost cried.
i hold on to my tears, not wanting it to drop.

but i don't know what's the reason.
mood swing is coming; i just knew it.

now, i feel like crying.
and for the next moment, i just feel like punching someone.

friends sometimes just don't how we feels.
and sometimes boyfriend also don't understand me that well.

only these two girlfriends understand me well whom is; Aini & Syasya.
i hearts them more than anyone else.

LEAVE ME ALONE ; for now ..

NATT(: scolded me cause i got the wrong information.

oopss. told her today there's test but in fact it is tomorrow.
and yea, she's a bit gundu today.
her hp clock was 20mins early and everything she does from yesterday was early by 20mins, i guess.

today didn't study a bit.
and go to class also no use.
just being briefed about the project thingy.
and i swear i hate the EFC teacher.
citot. she's trying to fuck us up and then i fucked her back.
and NATT(: was like telling me that i was kinda mean.

left the lesson half-way through since Mandy and the gang also left.
me and NATT(: headed to Tamp and walk around for a while and then headed home.
i headed Bugis and waited for Aini there.
while waiting, i walked around.
there's not much shops yet opened.
and i have aimed this skirt.
sooooonnn, i'm going to buy that.
woohooo. (:

i bought a 'SpongeBob Boxer'.
ahahaha.
and bought my accessories and perfume and etc together with Aini.
took 960 to BPP back.
slept inside the bus and it was very fucking hot i tell you.
there's some complaints behind and i can't sleep that well.
ouh yea, this guy keep looking at me when he step inside the bus.
he stopped at BPP and indeed i find him very familiar and maybe he finds me familiar too somewhere.

i miss my Hazli GUNDU (((:
haven't met him from this morning.
probably meeting him later.
thought of asking him to go eat dinner together.
hopefully he call me later.

i'm so stressed.
i haven't done a bit about my project thingy.
OMG! and the dateline is soon.
i need to get my work done soon and fast.

; DARLING...
i miss you so much and i hope our love will last long.
and hope all your words are for real.
and i'm sorry for the whole thing that happened recently.
i really really sorry.
i just don't want to lose my loved ones.

guess i haven't been updating these few days uh.

really sorry.
not in the mood to blog.
oh well, for now while i'm free i'm here to blog.

work was absolutely boring today.
i swear it was really really boring.
the managers really fucked us up.
both me and Aini was not pleased with them.
really, she was really furious during that time.
OMG! and so i ask her to follow me go back home.
played the computer.
check Friendster, Myspace, Multiply and uploading songs.

after that, i went to bathe and after settling.
we went off from my house and headed to Lot1.
wanted to something but didn't bought anything.

and then, something cropped up.
it's Ekin, Aini's sister.
she didn't went home for the whole day and so we have to look for her around BPP but she was nowhere to be seen.
sheesh.

after that, me and Aini headed to Greenridge Mall and waited for Abang Amie and ate.
oh gosh, it ell you.
one by one was so damn hungry.
CITOT. (:

after that Amie send Aini to bus stop at Petir and i go and meet my sleepyhead.
YAY! like finally. (:
he send me home today and pass him my Adidas bag to lend it to Aidil.

oh well oh well.
i'm now like chatting with NATT(: Yayan and Clinton.
i'm so stress for now.
i haven't done my project thingy yet.
halfway done.
someone please help me.
uergh. ='(

oh ya, before i forgotten...
please support LAST DAY OUT on the upcoming event on the 18th March at MDIS.

and i'll be there, see you guys soon. (:

i wanted to update yesterday post but somehow my computer hang out of the sudden.
so here is yesterday post;

oh well, met with my NATT(: at 8.30am at Tamp; supposingly.
and she's happy cause she was early than unexpected.
usually, i have to wait for her and this time it was her to wait for me.

today, only had FTY practical and no other lessons.
oh gosh, i was so happy then. (:
3 hours of FTY practical was pretty fun.
all the jokes, craps and laughing that we all created simply makes us goes even more crazy.
am i right my dearest; gundu NATT(:

oh well, today my dearest NATT(: have two therapists.
one of them was me and the other one was Maria.
i do for her cleansing and Maria do for her massage.
i guess she should be happy that there's two therapists doing for her facial.
boohoo. (:
oh yeah, i tried to fuck NATT(:
imagine that? ahaha.
* i guess she loves it.

after she had done her facial, it was my turn.
halfway, someone msged me.
i thought who and guess, it was Hazli and Husaini.
msged me at the same time.
teacher keep looking at us and i hardly have the time to reply.

after FTY practical, went for lunch and ate Nasi Lemak.
NATT(: told me that she finally gets to eat Nasi Lemak as she have been craving for that for a few weeks.
and like finally; FINALLY! (:
was eating with NATT(: Bul, Wani and Mark.
saw Hazli and the gang and even saw Fandi and the gang.
sheesh.

after that, me and NATT(: went to change into our PE T-shirt for the team-building games.
first of all we had to create some 'cheer' for our BF class.
and then headed to the hall for some Dutch Ball game.
i guess that many people hate our class; i guess.
we even challenged with the other classes from Business School too.
so, i suggested that we do a cheer to have the team united and then the other class also did the same.
what only ..

huergh. they aren't happy with us and so do we.
it's kinda funny when i see Aisha reaction scolding at them.
all we do was laughed and laughed.

the BG class supported us as we win from the other class.
so what if they have guys in the team.
boohooo.

and then proceed to the other things.
we skipped a lot of activites cause due to the bad weather.
(:

the team-building thingy finished at about 4.30pm.
me and NATT(: managed to escape after the cheer thingy.
and they called us back but we ignored it and briskly walk.

anyways, BG Beauty Therapists; ROCKS! (:

met with sleepyhead after that.
waited for me in school and then headed home.

( somehow, it's kinda weird )
:'(

Nistar Nisa(:

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