if you want me, then fight for me, because i'm fighting like hell for you.

i just got home from school.
i reached home at about 2pm.

surprised. surprised.
it's been a long time since i got home that early.

out from school during lunch time at 12pm.
i am so freaking lazy to study.
not in the mood to talk much.

so here i am to blog and checking out my Friendster, Myspace & Multiply.
and helping out my dearest NATT(: on her blog.

i'm sorry my dearest NATT, because of me you too have to tag along with me.
its all started with me, i guess.

i just feel that those special days are going to end just like that.
all those happy moments that i had with me was just too hard to leave it just like that.
it is so unbearable to suffer all the painess and being hurt.
i'm just afraid of losing those things that are memorables for me.
same goes as losing my loved ones.
:(

AGAIN! time and times again.
it happened again.

i almost lost someone.
and neither would i want to lose him too.

but, somehow its hard for me to face you now.
though, i really want to see you.

i'm being too emotional?
crying and etc.
just couldn't accept it things like this happen.
would that helps if i start to cry just because of you.
and only then you will go to ME.
what do i expect?
it's your own feeling and your choice.

i just feel like i'm one girl that easily got thrashed by.
easily to be a target.

i'm beginning to deepen my love for you and yet things seems to be crushed out of the sudden..

tell me all my dearest, what should i do?
i'm helpless for now and i don't know how to work things out.

selfish in me wanting you badly by my side for now.
hurhur. =/

went to school together alone today. but met up with Fareed, Yusri and one of his classmate. went to school on the way together.

class ended preety early today at 11.15am. the others are going to Suntec City for the showcase. whatever it is, i don't know anything what's going on.

so, met up with Tommy, Fareed, Yusri together with Natt and waited for Aini, Reno and Nana. while waiting, we just sit around at school and chit-chat and saw my cousin and chit-chat too. not much stuffs; though.

after meeting up with Aini, Reno and Nana, left Natt with BOO. and we headed towards Expo. took pictures and stuffs. khekhe. i love my buddies. (: the pictures are awesome cool. waiting for Tommy to send it to me and i'll put it down on my blog.

Yusri, Tommy and Aini was left behind at Expo as they were kinda slow to get up and by the time the Mrt shut it door. ahaha. so funny, i tell you what had happened. and me being so damn fucking loud at Expo shouting here and there and giggling. people keep looking at me wondering if i'm an idiot, i guess. huahua.

by then, when we were inside the Mrt i was waiting for a seat to place and like finally i got one and sa down and slept. very freaking tired. stopped at CCK. and waited for Aini, Yusri and Tommy there. and then, we board the bus to Chua Chu Kang Sec. people keep looking at us inside the school and we being so noisy. saw our teachers and then they ask how we are doing and which school and taking what course. i'm impressed. one of my teacher said, i look preety. khekhe. same goes for the others. people keep wondering what school i get in and what course. they can't believed i was in BT course and schooling at Simei and stuffs. duhh.

we went back in that school just to collect back our N-Level certificate. after collecting the certificate, me and Aini headed to BPP. she's working and i got nowhere to go so called up sleepyhead and meet them at pondok.

went home early uh. wanted to search for something for my project. but my sis was using the comp and i fall asleep.

wanted to do a research but lazy uh. called up sleepyhead. first call was okay but the second call, it seemed that we hardly talk. hmmm? never mind uh, let him do his own things. i just don't want to upset him over some things.

i reached home today at 10.30pm.

met with sleepyhead and the others.
sleepyhead was so happily sleeping.
couldn't wake up although for about how many missed calls.
seriously. tsktsk.
i checked his hp and there was more than 80++ missed calls and messages too.
huergh. that is why i called him; sleepyhead. (:
i love seeing him asleep.
he sleep like a baby.
khakha.

after he managed to wake up, we went to eat at Greenridge and then went back home.

; Darling.
how i wish we could just be happy.
no fights.
no quarrel.

yea, sometimes i'm jealous over you.
but you should know why it is so.
sometimes, i have to understand.
perhaps you got lots of girl-friends and i've got myself lots of boy-friends too.
but somehow, i just have to control myself for not being too jealous over you.

as days goes by, we seemed to have lots of misunderstanding.
do you realised that?

D, if you were to play behind my back, i'll be truly dissapointed in you.
i just hope you wouldn't.
yes. we did communicate about the matter previously.
and that's why i'm trusting you when you said i'm your only one and you wouldn't want the history to repeat itself again.

i have my own limits but not too overboard.

D! as days goes by my hearts for you keep growing.
i'll try my best to win your heart and so do you.
hopefully, the special day will come soon. (:

ILOVEYOU; sleepyhead love. (:
*MWAKS; Hazli*

my beloved Miss Yani going to New Zealand to continue further her studies.

i just came back from airport to send Miss Yani off.

yeah, we bought her a snow cap with a small teddy bear with it.
hope she likes it.

went there right after class ends.
met with Doraemon, Tommy, Aini at Bugis together with sleepyhead and Aidil.
and headed to Changi Airport.
reached there, we sat down at Coffee Bean for a while and sleepyhead with Aidil was gone to somewhere else.
then met up with Miss Yani and the others.
took pictures together.
khekhe.

Miss Yani went in at about 8.30pm and then we left.
we go on our seperated ways.
me & Aini while Doraemon &amp;amp; Tommy while Hazli & Aidil all were seperated when going home.
huergh.
met with sleephead for a while to give something and then headed home.
surprisingly, someone run towards me and ask me if i'm willing to be his friend and send me home to the lift.
(((:

had a tiff with my sleephead this evening and i shed a tears.
tsktsk. ='(
but overall, we managed to pull it off and settled it.
i'm tired of fightings and arguments just because of something small.
i'm sorry sleephead for all the cause that i had done that doesn't amused you.
i'm really sorry.

today for Facial Therapy practical class was quite funny.
hahas. i did something which made people amused.
i can't said it, too shy.

oh gosh! exams coming and i'm not even prepared.
hurhur.
can't stayed out too late at night nowadays.
i'm like so freaking tired and haven't had enough rest.
tmr got HFC test and i think i'm going to stay till late morning to study for a while.
i need to revise at least something. hurhur.

i'm so freaking tired.

two days straight and i've been working overtime and it seemed that my sickness is getting worst.
OMG! tak boleh angkat uh.

it's nearing to 3am and i've yet to sleep.
sheesh.
and later i'll be working again. over-time again.
aaargh! when is the day that i'll be free and can spent my time with my loved ones?
i hope it will be soon.

i miss my; sleepyhead. (:
he's now at East Coast enjoying the day at there with his family members and cousins.
i only get to see him for a while when he drop by my workplace just now.
hurhur.

ouhokay.

finally. i got the time to write something on my blog.
and, my darling keep pestering me to write.
hmph!

i've been busy with school, work and so on.
currently, i'm having a sore throat and there's someone to take care of me.
my darling; of course.
he take good care of me.
khekhe.
i feel so appreciated by him.
(:

lately, we've spent time with each other.
it seemed that we look as a couples; but we aren't officially yet in a relationship.
as days goes by, my feelings for him has grown.
he never fail to make me happy everyday.

till here then.
let the pictures do the talkings.
i don't know what to write.
so lazy uh.
hahas.
tmr schooling and meeting him in the morning and then meet Natt for early breakfast and then after school heading Tanjong Pagar.
hurhur.
i hope he wakes up early later.
NIGHTS! x))

i'm so freaking tired. woke up late in the afternoon.

and yea, i got muscle stretch for yesterday thingy.
went for Karate. it was fun, indeed.
but tiring and torturing day. haha.
one by one, some people got blister.
i don't have instead my leg was burning like fire. khakha.
the guys keep complaining. like duh. hahas.
no Karate lesson until 1 March. met with Tommy at Cck and accompanied me buy food and then went home.
what a tiring day.

later evening, i'll be working the midnight shift. waduh. waduh.

i don't know what to write out of the sudden.

tsktsk.
but my Gundu ask me to update my blog.
and i know he's reading this.
*WINKS* ='P

02/02/07

met NATT at the Tamp Interchange and went for breakfast first.
we missed for the first lesson.
and went for the second lesson but PE teacher didn't come.
so me and NATT went to the Cafe and ate fruits.
YUMYUM! x))
and went for the last lessons which was Facial Therapy.

my Gundu didn't came to school.
huergh.
but, gladly i was able to meet him after school.
meet him at ITE Dover as he and the rest were going for jamming.
i got lost for a while on my way there and asked a young malay guy and he is going to drop at the same bus-stop as me.
so, no worries.
khekhe.
i went off at 5pm plus as i was working.
he send me to the bus-stop quickly and kindly waited for me to alight the bus only then he went off.
supposingly working at 6.30pm and obviously i couldn't make it and then called up the store and rushed home quickly and reached store at about 8pm.
khakha.

work work work but a bit tired and bored.
so at night, when Isa came, i got accompany and we were so bored and do stupid things to joy ourselves.
after work, he picked me up.
chilled out and talk things out.
yea, glad to talk things out with him.

03&04/02/07

woke up late and my voice changed.
and i swear it sucks.
khakha.

then met up with him and went for dinner with his bro together.
after that, chilled out with the others.
i'm happy as i'm able to meet him.
(((:

chill chill chill and then at night meet Bahir and R.Z for a while.
chit chat as long time never chit chat ma.
khekhe.

then headed back to pondok and see movie at his house.
khakha.
that's the day, i spend time with you lovingly.
and every seconds, minutes and hours we shared;
i'll never ever forget those moments.
cause that's the first day i spend time with you the whole night.
khekhe.
you're so sweet that never fails to make me smile.
and i thank you for that, love.
(((:

till here, as i don't know what to write anymore and have no idea.
so Gundu, are you happy?
hee. if you're happy, then i'm happy too.
right now, i miss him and i adores him.
x))

didn't go school just now.

and wondering if i should go for Karate lessons or not?
i slept from yesterday night till 1pm uh today.
i'm so SUPER SUPER TIRED.
and somemore, its irritating when someone keep calling me up and keep msging me.
i keep on waking up when i was asleep.
i couldn't be bothered to msg back or answer a phone calls.
huergh.

when i got up, i called Gundu and then went online.
ahaha.
i saw NETASHER my darling was online too.
i guess she didn't went to school either.
ahaha.
went online with NETASHER, NINI and DEE.

anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY; DEE! x))
& NONOI & KEN!

now, i'm just checking up my Friendster, MYSPACE and blogging.
oh gosh. i'm so tired and damn hungry.
khekhe.
i guess, i have to stop here then.
i wanna eat.
OMGoodness!

-update!

went to BPP to meet up with Gundu and the rest at pondok.
chilled out and then went to BPP to bought some stuffs as i got the $20 voucher.
great.
ahaha.
then something ugly happened.
i was so scared and lost of words.
don't know what to said.

i've never ever seen a guy was so bloody fierce scolding someone.
huergh.

i just kept quiet when we going home.

but things turns out perfectly after that uh.
thank goodness.
thought of meeting DEE for a while but they were so late of meeting up each other so i got home lor.

tmr, got PE! hurhur.
and lessons ended at 1pm.
and hell, Mandy not going to school.
she don't want to friend me and Natt anymore.
khekhe.

Nistar Nisa(:

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