if you want me, then fight for me, because i'm fighting like hell for you.

all these times, what do you take me as?
as a fool?
i know i'm easy to be your target.
but, have i ever did something wrong to you?
and why you did those fucking moments behind my back?
who are you?
trying to treat me as your sis?
get this right Yan.
i'm ain't your sister.
you and me don't share the same father.
ouhokay and do you get it?!
though you treat me as your sis, but a sis will never betrayed someone.
times and times again.
i was wrong and thinking that you are good.
but i got this instinct that you aren't.
i'm so an idiot for being lenient to you.
what the fuck are you trying to do?
playing games with me?
or wanting to be good and regret everything that you had done?
it's kind of LATE to realise for your mistake.
oh no. don't apologise to me cause i'm not forgiving you.
what do you take me as?
a forgiveful person?
hell NO. i'm not and get that on your brain.
everyone will started to apologise once they have realised for their own mistakes.
from the starting of knowing you, i got the feelings already something is not right.
and then beginning to know you when i got myself jealous over those pictures.
i myself am a girl.
don't expect me not to know anything.
true enough, i'm young.
SO?! you yourself are 19 and yet not matured enough to think likewise.
fuck it.
do, don't try to speak up with me.
and i don't deny these.
I REALLY HATE YOU from the day had started wrong.
you don't know my true colours yet.
i could just go and smack onto your face.
its not because of him that i wanna give a smack to you.
cause all these times, who had given me those encouragements and all.
and i'm ain't stupid not to know anything.
in fact, i now everything!
fuck from my life, girl.
seeing you all the times, giving me a hatred to you even more.
though he told me that there's no point of hating you.
what do you think?
is it really there's no point of hating you?
ahahaha.
but true enough, there is some points of me to hate you and hate you even more.
let be these of something whether i should reconsider.

this is what you said all these times.

(12/11/06)
Hey Sis...
Seems Troubled By Sumting Or Sumone Only?? Are U OK???
Well, Wassup? Care To Share With Me? Hrmm.. I May Be Abled To Help U & Even Clear Up Ur Doubts..
Hrmm Tt Tym U MSg ME Seekin Fer Help.. Wat Was It Eh?
Well, My Dear Sis, Tokin Bout Betrayers... Wasup Sia? Hrmm My Advice To U, Neva Jump To Conclusion.. Do U Really Noe Wats Goin On? Did U OnLy Hear From Sumone Or U Noe It By Urself? If U HAppen To Noe By Ur Frenz, My Advice Is Neva To Believe Ur Frenz W/O Proof.. Cox Ur Good Frenz MAY BE D Betrayer Instead Of Whom U Blame.. Frenz May Be Nice To U But Do U Noe Exactly Wats On Their Mind? Sowie.. Ive Come Across Tis Ting B4... Sum Frenz Are So Jealous & Dey Can Destroy Every HAppiness Tt U HAv... I Dun Wan It To HAppen To My Sis.. So If U Hav Any Prob, Clear Up ASAP Cox Its Not Gd To Dwell Over It... Hrmm.. Btw Hw U n Fan Goin On? Hope Everythin Are Fine!!! Get BAck To Me Asap.... As U Noe.. My No IS So Anythin Jux Beep Me!!
TAkin Care....
BuByez!!

(25/12/06)
Hey Hey Hey!!!
Yeah I Had Fun Down @ Town... Hrmm PAcked To D MAx Sia... Wahahax!!!! HAd Fun But Den Go Werk D Morning, Moody Liao... Tired Sey.. HAhahax.... Cmas Still Need To Werk.... HAiyo....
Hrmm.... Ala Ciannye... Y Neva Go Out Wif Ur Frenz?
So Who Got MArried TT dae? Hrmm Okies Chiao.. Takin Care..... ;)
Well Bout Ur Shout Out!!! I Guess He Also Misses U So Much.... If U Really Wants Him, Jux Be Frank & Say It To Him....Be Straightforward.. Its Ok If U MAke D First Move..
Cheers,
Yan

(27/12/06)
Hey Hey...
Hrmm.... How i wish i can sit at home.. im tird of lepakz & stuffs in Singapore... Lar... Boring Jer...
Hrmm... Ala cian waiting fer stores to cal ya.. Hrmm nevamd dun weri, u wil soon get to werk... Jux takin care of urself...
Lar, he wun changed tt easily lar... U shud noe him betta... Hrmm jux tok tings out w him...
Anw how? Choose ur courses alr? So wen will u get to noe wat course u get & which sch?
Hrmm.... New year's around d corner.... How? Celebratin it? Well, me dunno lar..celebratin wif my frenz of Geoff Team... Confused ar...
Okies lar... Takin Care & Have Fun aite....
Cheers,
Yan

a message from Yan to Dee.
(07/11/06)
Original message from YaN CLiMbEr:
eLLo...
Hahax...Dun Ask Me Y I Send U A Message!!!
Cox I Myself Dunno Y... Jux Wanna Say Im Missing U..BadLy...SeriousLy... Every Min & Sec & Hr...Wahax!!
Well, I Wun Be Seein U From 30th till 1st Nov... I Got Camp Lar... Unless U Wanna Chillz Out Wif Me @ Nite... I Tink Its Gonna Be Boring Sak... Cox My Frenz Kebanyakn Neva Go... Haix...
Hrmm.... Haix!! Im Very Shack Now Wif Werk... I Wanna Take A Break From It... Concentrating On Camps, Enjoys, Life, Findin New Guy Whom Is Exactly Lyk U... hahaha.... Nah Jokin Jer Bout D Findin.... Bz Jer.. Maner Ader Yg Nak Bz GaL Lyk Me...Wahahaax..
Okies Lar GTG.... Takin Care... Dunno By Wen U Will Read Tis Msg... Nevamd.. U Still Owe Me A Testy... I Dun Care!!!
Hahax!!!
Cheers,
Sweet Yann

btw get this clear, i and him broke up officially on 17/11/06!
fuck it if he lied to you all these while.

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