surprised. surprised.
it's been a long time since i got home that early.

out from school during lunch time at 12pm.
i am so freaking lazy to study.
not in the mood to talk much.

so here i am to blog and checking out my Friendster, Myspace & Multiply.
and helping out my dearest NATT(: on her blog.

i'm sorry my dearest NATT, because of me you too have to tag along with me.
its all started with me, i guess.

i just feel that those special days are going to end just like that.
all those happy moments that i had with me was just too hard to leave it just like that.
it is so unbearable to suffer all the painess and being hurt.
i'm just afraid of losing those things that are memorables for me.
same goes as losing my loved ones.
:(

AGAIN! time and times again.
it happened again.

i almost lost someone.
and neither would i want to lose him too.

but, somehow its hard for me to face you now.
though, i really want to see you.

i'm being too emotional?
crying and etc.
just couldn't accept it things like this happen.
would that helps if i start to cry just because of you.
and only then you will go to ME.
what do i expect?
it's your own feeling and your choice.

i just feel like i'm one girl that easily got thrashed by.
easily to be a target.

i'm beginning to deepen my love for you and yet things seems to be crushed out of the sudden..

tell me all my dearest, what should i do?
i'm helpless for now and i don't know how to work things out.

selfish in me wanting you badly by my side for now.
hurhur. =/