i slept the whole day.
mum forced me ate medicine when she knows i hate medicine so much.
i'm having a high fever, cough, flu and sore throat.
hurhur.
and boyfriend is just testing my patience.
i hate it so much.
i've send him a friendster message.
i hope he does look me up.
:(

10 August 2007

naphfa test.
me and gundu GF; Natt didn't went for 2.4km cause i was sick.
i saw my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(: in school with Yani.
never talk much.
he sat with Yani outside cafe 1 whereas me and gundu GF; Natt saw outside co-op shop.
i didn't talk much cause i'm having sore throat.
chatted on the hp with my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(: telling me he did called me but i ignored and for goodness sake i didn't heard anything uh.
proceeded to do the 5 stations.
ended at 11am.
send gundu GF; Natt outside bus stop and proceed back to school.
hello, i waited for him alone in school for the damn 2 hours but he was nowhere to be seen.
he told me got re-test and i saw Izah asking her to accompany me and when 1pm strucks, he didn't went for the re-test at all.
what the heck.
i was a fool in the school.
i swear that i wanted to cry already.
after that i couldn't be bothered and went straight to City Hall Mrt station to wait for my cousin; Yazid and Yayan and 3 of his friends at 3pm.
i reached first at the destination.
after that proceed to Seoul Garden at Marina Square and met up with Aim and GF.
eat eat eat and had funs.
after eating, met up with with Fad and Amie.
nyehahas. [:
went to watch Rush Hour 3 movie at Marina Square.
after movie, went to sheesha at Arab Street.
by the time i was feeling down and so sick.
so, i rested my head on cousin; Yayan lap.
i asked him to help me call my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq but he was not at his crib.
okay, fine.
i'm just waiting for his good reasons that he have all these while.
went back to my crib taking bus 960.
i know cousin; Yazid said something to Amie to take bus.
i know what he's trying to say.
so that Fad could send me back to my crib taking motorbike.
oh please, i got a boyfriend okay.

9 August 2007

woke up at 3pm.
quite tiring.
i slept at 5am plus yesterday.
watched Transformers.

Wafi called my crib at about 4pm plus asking me if i'm going out?
i said i'm not and he asked me to tag along with him go Esplanade watch fireworks.

met up with him at 5.45pm at pondok bus stop.
called up my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(: and did chatted with him for a while.
i saw BF; Yusuf and the others and my ex-punk boyfriend at there too.
i just ignored but did chatted with Yusuf for a while asking me where am i heading to.
after chatting with my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(: on the handphone, Wafi called.
asking me to meet him at pondok cause taking bus 960 instead to Marina Square straight.
was messaging with Yanie on the way.

reached Marina Square, called Amie bro asking where he is.
went to eat at KFC while waiting for the rest to come.
by the time they had reached, we had already finished eaten.
the present ones; Farhanah, Hazli, Hasnim, Aidil, Munir, Abu, Amba and Effendi.
there were other peoples too.
too many to mentioned.
but the peoples that were together always with me was the present ones that i had mentioned.
i saw my cousin; Lisa and her friends.
everytime saw me with guys will always asked me if that's my BF?
huh. i was stunned.
doesn't mean i'm with guys, that will be my BF.
i only got one BF whom is my only one my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(:
i saw GF; Jerrica and BF, Ahmad and Syuk.
chit chatted with Ahmad.
there was a fight at Marina Square LJS.
chinese guys and malay guys.
police did came and asked them to sit down at LJS and questioning.
8.15pm, i told Ahmad i want to watch fireworks and then headed behind Marina Square with Wafi.
by the time, fireworks just started.
i didn't get the full view.
hmph!
after the fireworks had finished, chilled out for a while at Marina Square.
i saw my secondary schoolmate; Eleena and we were like shouting.
nyehahas. [:
she's being missed by me.
i saw my primary and secondary schoolmates and Fandi's bestfriend; Niza.
by 10pm, me, Wafi, Farhanah, Hazli and Munir went to bus 190 bus stop near Chimes.
boarded the bus 190 ans alighted at Pending while the others alighted at pondok bus stop.
i saw Sharizal and the others in the Lrt.
i alighted at Fajar with his friends then went back to my crib.

i'm now feeling a bit sick.
having this damn sore throat.
uergh!
and tomorrow got Napfa test.
hurhur.

i miss my dearest Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(: he didn't called me. boohoo. :(

Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(: what i have said just now was not to be meant. i'm really sorry. lately, i have been thinking a lot. i'm really sorry for the wild thinking and sayings. haish. d, i felt that we are really drifting apart. i don't want us to be drifting apart. seriously i don't wish to. i love you just like how you love me. if you ever got a new GF, i swear i will search her like how i used to search the other girls when you tell me that they love you. bahh~ d, even though i did went out with them just now, i know my own limits. especially, i know you sound as if you don't like it when i going out with them especially *him* d, rest assured, i didn't flirt around with them. even if they did, i would always think of you beforehand before i do stupid things. that's the reason why i love you. i love you and i will always love you.

8 August 2007

bestfriend; Aini called me early in the morning at about 7am plus.
i rejected her first call but answered her second call.
after that went to sleep again.
i woke up at about 2pm.
bathe and ate and then watched tv; cartoon.
i was so freaking lazy and was caught in a daze.
called bestfriend; Aini if she's going out.
yearhs, she is.

at about 3pm plus, gundu GF; Natt called my crib.
she asked me if i'm going out and i said no plan for today.
yearhs, she asked me out and i did went out with her.

met her up at 6pm at Orchard Mrt station.
i reached earlier at 5.45pm.
one chinese guy came up me and keep asking me for donations of $2 and wanted me to hear for what he's going to say and not more than 1 minute and guess what? he sang me the national pledge.
i laughed and told him that i seriously got no money and now waiting for my friend.
he praised me for my mini skirt saying that design is nice and he would like his to be like mine too.
bahh~
one malay guy came up to me and asked me to do the survey as long as it is being filled up.
i did and he was trying to pronounce my name.
duh.
i was like, '' huh? ''
then, he asked me loads of questions and so on after that he left.
only then, gundu GF; Natt reached.
went up to Far East Plaza and saw that malay guy again and he smiled at me.
ate Sakura then to Wisma Atria and saw GF; Niny and Sam and then to Takashimaya.
we did loads of things except for we don't have camera if not we would be camwhoring too.
hurhur.
sat down outside Takashimaya and chit chatted after that proceeding to City Hall by taking Mrt.
walked around Marina Square.
both me and gundu GF; Natt bought a three pairs of earrings and rubber bands together for me, gundu GF; Natt and gundu GF; Lulu.
me got a yellow colour, gundu GF; Natt got a green colour and gundu GF; Lulu got a red colour.
so each of us got different colours but same design of earrings and rubber bands.
saw gundu GF; Natt ex-boyfriend at Marina Square too.
uhuh.
after window shopping around Marina Square, went outside and sat down outside Macdonald.
waited for BF; Fart was two hours.
bloody-ass.
boys always keep holding girls precious time.
huergh!
after BF; Fart came, saw few boys from Ite Simei too.
called bestfriend; Aini asking where she is and she was at Esplanade.
went to look for her there.
i saw my badot bestie; Amri at Esplanade with i forgotten his name?
yaww!(:
i was shouting his name loudly and he was damn shocked and almost make the sign fall.
nyehahas. [:
i miss him pretty loads and hugged each other.
bloody-ass, it's been a few months since we last saw each other.
[Amri] kecoh uh lu mat eh.
we chatted for a while cause he was going off.
i saw his face and stared at him asking him what the heck with his face and i know something is not right.
eventually, i got it right.
he was high during that time of period.
bahh~
i saw Kak Sha and her boyfriend too.
salam her and chatted for a while.
took her number and then she went dating.
i met up with bestfriend; Aini, sis; Ekin, GF; Rina and BF; Farouk.
sat down all together.
yaww! (:
saw Hardcore GF; Ikak Momok too.
in fact, i saw loads of GF's and BF's.
nyehahas. [:
left Esplanade at about 11pm plus together with gundu GF; Natt and BF; Fart taking Mrt.
saw BF; Danial and the others on our way to City Hall Mrt station.
BF; Fart went to meet his cousin; Ferhan.
so both me and gundu GF; Natt took the Mrt going towards Woodland.

GF; Yanie did beeped me up and just keep on messaging with her.
bahh~
reached my crib at about 1am.
scared on the way back to crib, i called gundu GF; Natt to accompany me chat on the handphone.
put down the handphone once i reached my crib.
thank god, nothing happened.
changed sim card and i received message from ex-boyfriend; Fandi.
called him but he's sleeping already so didn't bother him.
called up gundu GF; Lulu asking about tomorrow's plan.
i'm stressed up and i'm clueless to everything, so don't ask me anything.

7 August 2007

went to school with gundu GF; Lulu.
met up with her at Cck Mrt station.
guys staring at me and i just ignored.
eventually, i know them.
when gundu GF; Lulu came, boarded the Mrt.
bestfriend; Aini called me.
i saw BF; Fadil and the others.
they were the ones who stared at me.
BF; Fadil was like waving at me and smiling from far.
i smiled and giggled.
stopped at Tampiness Mrt station.
both me and gundu GF; Lulu overslept till Tampiness.
took bus 31 to school and went straight to class.

didn't go 2nd class only but did went for the rest of the classes.
lunch: ate Spaghetti with gundu GF; Lulu at Noods.
met up with BF; Fart at Forum to give back his handphone cause his handphone was with gundu GF; Lulu.
we did a spot check on his handphone and was laughing out loud.
nyehahas. [:
class ended at 3pm.
i keep on bugging with gundu GF; Lulu to go for all classes for attendance.
boohoo.
but, did managed to go for classes till 3pm except for the 2nd period that we didn't go but instead meet BF; Fart at Cafe 2.
met up with Karate BF; Fai outside MLC room.
i asked him to follow me send gundu GF; Lulu to Cafe 1 and meet BF; Fart, Azmeer and the others.
headed back to MLC room and meet up with bestfriend; Aini.
she and her friends were doing a project.
helped out her and her friends on their office project.
Karate BF; Fai fall asleep and were snoring.
i kept laughing and beat him up from his back to wake him up when we wanted to go off from MLC room after bestfriend; Aini and her friends finished up with their project.
saw BF; Fareed at MLC room too.
he tagged us along with me, Karate BF; Fai and bestfriend; Aini to bus 12.
BF; Fareed alighted at Tanah Merah Mrt station.
we got loads of things to chat about, huh.
yes, of course it is.
since secondary school all of us loves to talk much.

me, Karate BF; Fai and bestfriend; Aini went to Bugis.
they accompanied me to find black skinny pants.
i did find it and Karate BF; Fai bargained it till $22 from $25.
nyehahas. [:
Karate BF; Fai bought a '' star '' belt and make me jealous and i'm so pissed off.
huergh!
ate at KFC and then headed back to crib.

watched my favourite chinese drama at 7pm then watched tv all day.
called my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(: crib at 10pm but he weren't at his crib yet.
i was fucking worried by then.
called GF; Yanie if she knows about my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(: whereabouts.
she didn't know about it too and so i called my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(: again.
he's already at his crib by then, just only get back.
i feel like crying at the point of moment when talking with him.
i'm so clueless not to know much about him as days goes by, nowadays.
didn't talked much cause he can't use the phone.
i only said to him, '' if you feel like beeping me up then you beep up then and bye ''
my voice changed already by then and i don't want him to know.
he just simply won't know anything for what i know if something were to happen to me.
boohoo. :(
put down the phone and i went to my precious bed and started crying silently.
heard the phone ringing, i picked it up.
thinking it was who, it was my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(: who called.
chatted with him.
oh yearhs, he did wished us our first month anniversary.
all i replied was, '' oh ''
i don't have the mood to talk with him actually cause in fact i'm quite disappointed with him.
haish.
chatted till when he cannot chatted anymore.
the last words was i ever said to him was, '' you don't do anything stupid, okay and btw, happy first month anniversary to us too and sure to beep me up okay ''
after that, i went to sleep.

06/08/07

went out with mummy and brother to Bukit Gombak.
went around the shop just to look for my kebaya top for next Saturday kendarat.
i'm involved and that's make me so lazy and due to i still need to work.
i'm so stressed up.
i don't know what reason to give.
i think i will ask mummy to talk with my manager later on.
bahh~
bought a orange colour kabaya top.
will be buying a black pants at Bugis when i'm free.
duh.
i swear i don't want to go to the Bukit Gombak one of this shop.
eeew!
disgusting.
i saw one group of cockroaches inside this one shop near this market place.
i swear. the cockroaches were flying around and was inside this shop in a group.
can say there were more than a hundreds of cockroaches.
huergh.
bought my kebaya top and mummy bought hers too then headed back to crib taking Mrt.
stopped by Fajar Shopping Centre to buy Macdonald food.
i bought Spicy Meal.
yumyum! but spicy.
now, just waiting for my cousin to come to repair the computer.
msging with Amie Bro all the way when i was at Bukit Gombak.
i told mummy about it and she did laughed when Amie did say something.
boohoo.
yearhs, i love you guys too but i love my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq even more.

5 August 2007

work at 2pm.
do lobby. helped bestfriend; Aini do at DK. do kitchen.
break at 5.15pm.
punched in back from break at 5.45pm.
bestfriend; Aini finished work by then and went back to her crib.
i started to get active after break and Amirul, Shabil and Ibrahim had punched in from work.
the fun started from there.
disturbed each other like hell and kecoh-ness.
do kitchen, do counter and DK with them.
gila-ness.
i punched out at 8pm.
called my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq(:
chatted for a while.
i miss him like hell.
hurhur.
i'm being turned down by him again.

i'm not sure if you did miss me or love me ? i'm not sure if you did realised that we are like seperating from each other ? eventually , things are getting so complicated . so complicated that i couldn't decide the decisions . it's like as if , you are running away from me ? i'm not pretty sure what is going on ? can you tell me why ? i had a hard time contacting you for sure , is one reason that lies behind it . i'm just too lost . too lost that i never get to find the right answer if you love me ? oh darling , can you kindly like get me in the right path for me to get the rightfully answer from you without hurting me . :( i did feel hurt when i told you that , '' i miss you . '' but you didn't tell me that , '' i miss you too . '' usually, you will be the first person telling me that , '' IMY! '' but now , i get none from you . i just feel like crying and keeping myself quiet without you letting know . cause i don't want to have a quarrel with you . d , tell me how can i make our realtionship goes on and be a happy couples ever-lasting ones ? i love surprises , i love the way when you crack the jokes , disturbing me , hugging me real tight , kissing me , holding my hand and never let go , i love the moment when the both of us are together and so from there i can keep the pictures of us as a momento . wouldn't you want it that way ? but i can't help it if you are not helping me out d . i just feel break down . it's ever since , the lost hp thingy and your fight against that guy is making us drifting apart . don't you think so ? think about it d . i just hope you will at least tell me where's you whereabouts by calling me or texting me up . even , if you got any problem , you will still call me up and think about me . where's the promises ? and .. especially , sharing things together and never hide anything from each other ? sharing things together throught thick and thin . settle the problem together with you ? where is that all ? i don't really think so that you are doing that . think about it . what would you feel and do you ever concern about me if i was in your situation and never tells you anything . i would like to know one day if this kind of situation is happening and see if you really cares aout me and did look me up or not . i'm just controlling the patiences within me .

4 August 2007


woke up by the call of gundu GF; Lulu at 9.15am.
bathe and get ready to go to school.
Sat also need to go school but Monday will be an off day for the whole school.

yearh, did meet up with gundu GF; Lulu at 11am at Cck Mrt.
from Cck Mrt, i spotted this malay guy keep looking at us and i told gundu GF; Lulu if she did realised it too.
and yea, she did.
he have been looking at us and staring at us from Cck Mrt to Jurong East Mrt.
we both ignored by then.
waited for the Mrt going towards Pasir Ris, and once the train comes.
both me and gundu GF; Lulu hoping to get a seat.
we did, eventually.
and i even sat beside the guy that who have been looking at us and staring.
even when i sat beside him, he kept looking at us.
what the hell.
i couldn't be bothered.
listened to mp3.

when the destination at City Hall Mrt, the guy suddenly asked me this question.
guy: '' boleh tumpang tanya, macam mana nak pergi sekolah u uh? ''
i was stunned and looked at him then pluck odd the earpiece from ear and i said,
me: '' huh? you can alight at Tanah Merah or Tampiness Mrt station and have to take bus 31 from the interchange. ''
guy: '' oh, cause i'm going to your school you see. ''
me: '' oh, i see then. ''

then, i pluck in back the earpiece and listen to the mp3 all the way to Tanah Merah and alighted there.
the guy also alighted at Tanah Merah and i was wondering if he's going to our school Ite Simei, what on earth he still wants to take the Mrt to Changi Airport.
both me and gundu GF; Lulu was wondering if he's lying.
bahh~
we ignored and then bumped into gundu GF; Mandy and BTY GF; Yayan at Tanah Merah too.
went to the bus stop and waited for the bus.
tuk tuk tuk.
we saw that guy again.
nyehahas. [:
i guess, he's paisei or what?
boohoo.
he took the bus 31 same with us.
alighted at the same destination too.
duh.

went to Cafe 1 and bought food for breakfast.
yaww! (:
proceed to FTY at beauty lab.
both shift, i got no client.
a bit boredom.
but, both me and gundu GF; Lulu got duty so we need to do our duty.
finished till 4pm and then we can go off.
seperated.
both me and gundu GF; Lulu took Mrt back to our crib, cause we are in a hurry.
gundu GF; Natt went back to her crib with BF; Eiss.
he send her back to her crib.

gundu GF; Lulu said, '' EMO-SHITS! ''
there were a lot of emp-shits girls and boys.
boohoo.
had to stand up inside train and both me and gundu GF; Lulu eventually went to sleep while standing.
can't help it cause both of us are really damn tired.
tsktsk.
get to sit down at City Hall and went to sleep.
all the way to Cck Mrt.

reached crib at about 6pm.
gundu GF; Natt called.
asking what time to meet.
told each other to meet at 7.30pm and ended up everyone keep coming late at about 8pm and 8pm plus.

GF; Shikin reached first and i saw her sleeping.
pity her cause she was tired.
next to reach was gundu GF; Natt followed by gundu GF; Lulu.
went to Marina Square and window-shopping.
both me and gundu GF; Natt, our stomach was growling and ate at KFC.
i fought with the gundu gundu uncle who work at KFC and the manager.
the KFC customer services SUCKS!
SUCK BIG TIME!
gundu GF; Lulu, Sexylove BF and BF; Fad reached late.
did saw a lot a lot of GF's & BF's that passed by.
especially those students at Ite Simei.
nyehahas. [:

went to Esplanade.
camwhore a little only.
hmph!
i saw Wafi and the gang, Effendi and the gang, Sharizal and the gang, Emily, Last Day Out bandmates and so on.
they did called me.
nyehahas. [:
i missed those guys a lot la seh.

yearhs, walked off from Esplanade at about 11pm.
gundu GF; Lulu and her Sexylove BF, GF; Shikin, BF; Fad and the other are going to Chickies.
they asked to tag along but we don't want.
never mind. bahh~
next time, perhaps.
both me and gundu GF; Natt took Mrt from City Hall Mrt station.
met up with gundu GF; Natt ex-BF; Martien at Somerset.
okay, finally and for the first time, i met him.
gundu GF; Natt and her ex-BF; Martien alighted at Yio Chu Kang while i continued my journey to Cck Mrt and changed to Lrt.
very damn sleepy and slept after wash up.