if you want me, then fight for me, because i'm fighting like hell for you.

when i was feeling down, he would hear what problems i have.
thanks for everything and i appreciate it so much.
soon, you are going away and it won't be the same.
how i wish time would not go by so fast.

everyone was awake except for me.
mummy woke me up by beating me up with the pillow.
haas.

cousin; Yani went to town for a dating with someone.
while i got no plan.
called my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq! (:
he have soccer at Woodland and i thought of watching soccer but he wouldn't let me to cause he meeting that guy after that.
bahh~
he asked me to stay at home only but i don't want to and thought i will be Fandi Dee but no.
called best friend; Aini and finally she got plan.
the plan was to go town and chill out at Esplanade since we got nothing to do so we go ahead with the plan.
bestie; Amri called me at my hand phone and wanted to meet each other so we see how?

meet up with best friend; Aini and Ekin at Orchard Mrt at 5pm.
next, meet up with Ekin BF; Wanjo at Lucky Plaza bus stop.
proceed to Heeren and window shopping.

then, meet up with Razzaaq, Farouk and Sani.
ate at Burger King at Cineleisure.
Wanjo was lucky to find a hand phone N-73.
how i wish i was the one who found the hand phone.

after eating, proceed to Taka and chill out.
nothing to do and so we cam whore.

after that, took Mrt to City Hall Mrt station and walked to Suntec City.
sat at Fountain of Wealth at Suntec City.
the scenery was nice and perhaps i shall bring my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq! (: there one day.

met up with Fendi at Suntec City and proceed to Esplanade.
met up with bestie; Amri and GF; Zhiela too.
they joined us.
Hanz joined us too.
sat at Esplanade and chit chat all the way untill 10pm.
me and bestie; Amri keep chatting about the past.
aww!
i miss those memorable days when we used to be close and with our clans too.
haish. ):
how i wish .....
forget about it, i don't wish to talk about it.
hmm.

i left with bestie; Amri and GF; Zhiela at 10pm and took bus 960 to Pending and took Lrt back to my crib.

messaging with Fandi Dee cause bestie; Amri miss him and we are going out together with me, Fandi Dee, bestie; Amri and GF; Zhiela together next Saturday.
i'm so looking forward for Saturday.
Fandi Dee said why i didn't tell him earlier i met up with bestie; Amri and GF; Zhiela at Esplanade if not he can ask for early dismissal from work and meet us.
too bad then.

lately, i have been hearing malay songs.
it made me feeling down and remembering all the past that haunts me.
haish. ):
why should i feel this way?
what is past is past.
why am i keep still bothering about it and have this high chance of wanting what i always wanted before.
it's not fair, seriously.
i don't wish to hurt no one and i made a mistake.
argh!
can someone shout to my ear and tell me to move on.
it's because of that particular one song that suddenly make me feeling down.

my Spongebob BF; Zaid Zahiq! (:

d, sometimes i feel secured but sometimes i don't feel secured.
when i need you by my side, you weren't there?
especially, when i need you by my side urgently.
i was feeling down, sacrificing myself, burden myself, hurting myself and etc;
all because of you.
all these while, i need you but you were not there.
you hide yourself and rather be with your friends and not me.
how sad it is?
what if, i was touched by those guys and you didn't knew it.
what would you do and what would you feel?
i don't know if you still have that human feeling.
urgh!
whatever uh, i don't wish to go on anymore to say anything.
it's just make me so sad.
so sad that you weren't by my side when i need you instead others came to me.
hurhur. :'(

you feel jealous when i'm with others but the cares, concerns and loves do i get it from you, now?
haish. :(
i seriously don't understand.
what people says is true, things like this had happened the bonus question that make me really think twice about it is;
why must our relationship be drifting apart?
bahh~
i know you said once the problem has settle, we will be like the last time we used to be.
i'm just waiting for that day to happen real soon.

can i get the love that i used to get from you?

Nistar Nisa(:

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