( this is the 1st picture we took together and i was shy to take a picture with him. )

2005: i was 14 years old and he was 18 years old.
we were still very young during those days.
we only get to know each other during March and i still remember the first day we work together and i saw him so cute and without feeling embarrassed, i go forward to him and ask him for his number.
nyehahas(:

sepatutnya lelaki mintak perempuan nombor tapi ini terbalik.

ever since that day, slowly slowly we become close and then he treats me as a little sister and then we exposed to each other about our feelings for each other.
it was then 7 months of knowing each other before we take it seriously and involve in a relationship.

oh gosh, 7 months of friendship and got together officially on 24/10/05 and 12 months of separation and got back together once again on the 24/10/07.

( 2 months relationship when we first started out together. )

after being separated, i move on with another boy like he do, moving on with another girl.
even in my relationship with another boy, it was still a nightmare.
why did i cheated in my own feelings and move on with another person while i'm still in a state of confusion?
it was dilemma but i swear i regret with what i have done cheating other boy feelings and ended up i was the one who got cheated.
they all take it for granted and i vow that they will get a karma.
what goes around comes around.
fortunately, it happened.

( i still love you but in the same time i was still with another boy. )

haish.
i don't know what i brought myself into and i totally regretted it.

but, even though in our 12 months of separation, we still contact with each other.
we go out as usual and treat it as if nothing happens but we know that we are just friends but deep in our heart we still have feelings for each other.

in this relationship there's a lot of rough moments that i have gone through on my own.

( we both were single but i know he still loves me and i still loves him too. )

as days goes by, i contacted with fandi almost everyday but as a friends unfortunately.
i wanted him as a part of my life once again but i was scared of being hurt once again.
indeed that i found myself that i still love him and i still can't forget about him but i just couldn't express my feelings towards him.
we message and call each other like how we used to in the older days but eventually i was having my night life with my friends and i am not even interested in having a relationship.
basically, i knew that we still have feelings for each other but we hide our feelings without letting each other know.
we hardly get to meet each other as he was way too busy with his life.
after so long about few months we didn't met up with each other, we decided to meet up.
one day out was we went to town to have dinner and another day out was we went to Geylang during the Hari Raya Puasa.

i knew after this outing, we won't get to meet each other as he have to go and serve his national service.
but eventually, the day before he's going to left me and serve his national service, it was Hari Raya and he did messaged me up about wanting to meet me up but in the end we didn't get to meet up because i read the message few hours later when he sent it.
i was so devastated about i didn't get to meet him up.

so, he went to serve his national service and his book out was 2 weeks after that.
and guess what?
he make me as if i was his girlfriend again and open my heart for him once again but still i was afraid.
on the 24/10/07, he was still in camp and he messaged me '' would i want to be his girlfriend on the 24/10/07 once again? "
i was shocked.
during that time i was in school when he asked me and i can't stop smiling and crying in the same time cause indeed i was totally happy to the maximum.

oh gosh, you can't imagine how happy i was to receive that message.
nyehahas(:
but in the same time, i was afraid he might hurt my feelings once again.
i kept asking myself '' is this for real or for fake? "

we only got together for 1 years, 1 years of separation and we got back together 1 years later.
the time goes so fast and the next moment we didn't knew that we will get back together.
after being hurt so deeply times and times again.

( the present, the future. )

2007 & 2008: we really regret about the past but now we put the past behind and focus on our present and future.
we intend to plan for future in 5 years time.
we spoke to each other families and both agreed and now we need to save up money.

now, i'm happily attached with him once again whom hurt me before but still i love him like how i used to love him whole heartedly.
i swear i began to realize my mistake and i regret regarding about my past for what i have done.

i'm in love with my only one which i plan my future with whom is Muhammad Fandi Bin Nordin.
i never every regret about making him a part of my life.

we knew each other for 7 months before we got together and now we have already known each other for 3 years.
and today, the date 24/03/08 marks our anniversary date which turns out to be our 2 years 5 months anniversary.

( oh babyboy, i love you. )

oh yes, i almost forgotten.
happy birthday, nana(:
it's her birthday plus my anniversary with babyboy today.
yaww!

ps: bila nak pergi zoo?